Comfort

In The Morning

I woke up cuddled up with Tom . I pushed his arm off a little so, I could get up. I walked to the balcony in his shirt and his shirt only cause the inside of my house smelled like sex and cologne . Which I usually enjoyed the smell of but, right now I wasn't feeling it. I just wanted to to smell nature . I standed there and watched the birds chirp , the trees move from the gentle breeze, the sun raising it was so, peaceful. Then, I felt a pair arms grab me and pull me into a embrace. " Good Morning beautiful," Tom smiled . "Good Morning , " I said trying not to blush from him calling me beautiful . " Did you enjoy last night , ? " he snickered . Trying to the laugh like a little girl " Yeah , yeah I did " . I could feel his smile on my neck " Good , I was hoping we could do that more often ". I looked down then said " I don't think so , " . Sadly he ask "Why" My only response I could think of was that he was getting married to another woman . " Why do you keep bringing her up ? ". I was getting upset " Because it's your soon to be wife , " . "In my eyes my wife is right here " he said kissing my neck. I froze up I mean don't get me wrong I like Tom but , I never wanted to commit. That's what he wanted me to do . When , we first started are little fuck buddy thing, things were all cool I made it clear we could not commit and that I only like to fuck. He agreed and was happy . He didn't have to worry about anything like taking me out on dates . It was a straight sex thing . It was the life then , he started to really fall for me . Started to ask me out , buy me stuff, stop by not for sex but for conversation and etc... . I didn't say anything at first but , I noticed so I become a little distance. Then , he disappeared for awhile comes back we have mind blowing sex . The next morning he tells me to get dress he was taking me to breakfast. We get there and he proposed to me , infront of all these people I didn't know what to say so ,I just said I don't know and I run away. A few months later , after Tom disappeared for awhile again. I finally decided to apologize so , I knocked on the door and saw his fiance who was at that time his girlfriend , Stasia, opened it she mugly me and some more bull then Tom came to the door. He looked surprised to see me . She went inside so we could talk .I told him I wasn't ready for commit , that I was still 17 3/4 and I only wanted to fuck .I don't know if that hurt his feelings but , it seemed like it did and he kinda zapped on me and stuff . Long story short , he proposed to shawtty when he really loved me. " Don't start " I got upset . "Don't start what " Tom asked whispering in my ear. " Trying to act all lovey dovey , you know I don't like that shit , " Turning around to face him . " I know you don't I wished you did " Tom said putting his forehead on my forehead . I couldn't help but , smirk . " Tom , just because we had sex again don't mean I'm fall in love with you and stuff " just confirming this to him. " I know I know I know I wish you would but , I can't get that so, I'm just enjoy making love with you while I can. " he smiled putting me on the balcony edge . " What are you doing ? " I snickered . " Babe can I hit it in the morning the sun rising while you moaning" he smirked trying to be like J.Cole .I laughed at his craziness .He was so, funny. " But, forreal what you doing " I laughed . " Enjoying myself ,"as he went down on me . God did love moanings.

-Nicole