Comfort

Shocking/Suprised

Nicole P.O.V

I woke up in a pool of drool surrounded by bottles. What happen last night was a blurr. Like any other remorseful night. I got up to use the bathroom and did my routine . I put on some high waisted shorts , nirvana crop top , flannel and high top chucks . My hair was in a messy bun . I was natural faced today . I sat in my living room and watched cribs. When I got a weird carving for pickles . I ate the pickles . A hour later I was throwing up in the toilet. Wtf was up with me. I never get hangover like this. I could be... NO! I can't be . I started to panic I haven't had sex in awhile but , I did have sex this month. I always make sure they got a rubber on . What if it popped and ain't know but , I'm on birth control. I don't even know to be honest, . Maybe I should leave this house . I have been cooped up for awhile . I might just need some air . I brushed my teeth , grabbed my leather and was out . I had to hurry up because my neighbor , Tom was coming out with his fiance . If she only knew , smh . Once , I started driving I felt so , much better . I started thinking about me being a mom . I would be a horrible mom . I can't even figure out myself. How would I figure out a child ? I got lost in my thoughts . I started to remember my mom she was a blessing I took her for granted . When , I was younger she use to take me to the park and playground and we would just run around and have fun . I kinda missed those days no doubt , she did when I was 11 or 12 she use to try to do that stuff with me I just pushed her away. Smh , I was stupid for doing that . I wish I could relive the playgrounds days . As soon as , I thought that I saw a playground ... my CHILDHOOD PLAYGROUND ! I parked immediately , Omg it's looks the same. As I looked at the playground , I noticed a pretty little girl running around by herself . So , I got out to make sure she was ok .

Me : Hey , my name is Nicole .Your name is (smiling )

...: Hello, miss.nicole. I'm Sam (cheery )

Me : Are you ok ?

Sam: Yeah ( a little sad )

Me : Ok , where's your friends ?

Sam: Idk ...

Me : Is someone watching you ? (Considered )

Sam: My browther ( she said in her innocent voice pointing to the wall )

I admittedly noticed her brother was Ray .

Sam: He doesn't play with me .He sit on the wall with game . Told me to go head .

Me : Awwh , well I play with you Ok . But , first we speak to your browther ( I smiled )

Sam : (chuckling)Ok .

We walked over to the wall were Ray was playing a psp .

Sam : Ray , I made a friend she,wanted to talk to you

Ray : I don't want to talk to you stupid friend Sam , *annoyed*

I hit his shoes

Me : Hey , I'm not stupid

I said with I smile on my face because of my his stunned expression

Ray : I didn't know it was you , *looking down*

Me: It's ok.

I smiled again almost blushing because of his shyness . IT got awkward really fast Sam, most had noticed we were being awkward to cause she pulled me away to play. Ray said didn't he wanted to play with us at first his psp , whatever. But , he soon stopped and joined our game of hide and seek which he was losing . We had so much fun tho , it felt like I was a child again and Sam was a wonderful little girl .It was around 10 pm when, we stopped playing cause Sam had a curfew and had to get back home soon , . We walked to my car and stand there and awkwardness again because no one wanted to leave but , we had to . So I cleared my throat and squatted down to Sam's size "Bye little one." soon as , I said that she busted out crying . I was shocked did I do something wrong . " Don't leave. You my friend .Friend don't leave " . I got teary eyed at the sight of her crying . " I have too. I got get home just , like you have to. " I tried to make it a little better. She cried " I won't see you again , and Ray won't play no more " . Ray picked her up and smiled at her " I will always come here to run around with you I had so , much fun today with you. " she smiled a little . " How about this I give my number to your brother and you tell him to text me if you want another play date . " Her smile light up the night . I could tell she was excited by that . "Can we, Ray " his shyness got the best of him again so, he nodded and handed me the phone I programmed my number and they were gone after . I sat in the car thinking maybe I would be a good mother.

-Nicole