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"Y/N POV"

"This place is one of my favorite place in the world, I have a lot of good, bad, and sad memories buried here. The place where I bought the one special girl, that girl change my life in a good way.  She made me laugh,  she made me see all this wonderful things in the world,  the most importantly she teach me how to love, but all I repay her is a broken  heart *tears start to fall*"

His words keep playing in my head.

"Mian I didn't mean to talk about my past in our date, and don't get me wrong why I bought you here.  It's not to tell my old story or my past but, because your  special  to me too. I'm not saying this for fun but I'm telling the true. You are the first girl who made me feel the butterflies in my stomach fly again"

Special ? He said that I'm special?  But how can he say that I'm special in the past too?  And if he do see me as his special girl in the past, how can he cheat on me?

"I know and I don't mean to make you feel that your just someone to fulfill my emptiness, I'm not good on confession,  but let me show you"

I wish you have show me that you were sincerely loving me in the past.
If I just know Taehyung yesterday and I have never been hurt before by him,  maybe just maybe I will believe him.  But no fucking no, I have free my self from the living he'll I'm living in the past few years,  and I don't have the wills to go back there again.

Chanie: Y/N, Y/N, Y/N!!!!! 

"Huh? What, why is something wrong?"

Chanie: You've been spacing out lately are you OK? 😞

We'll after that date with Taehyung few days ago, I can't think of nothing but the words he said to me, I want it bad but I keep telling my self no, I don't want to be hurted again by the same person.

It's suppose to be my turn to play the game call love, and it's supposed to be my turn to break his heart, this was supposed to be my game and my rule, but why do I keep walking on the same wrong road when I already know what is waiting for me in the end of this road.

"Yeah, I'm just tired *weak smile more like fake smile*"

Chanie: Is this because of Taehyung?  You know you can tell me anything, and how can you be tired when all you do is staring blankly at the tv?

"No, it's not about him, it's nothing"

Chanie: Please. don't tell me it's because of you bullshit ex-boyfriend.  Why can't you just tell me who is this bastard that made you feel this way? 😠😠😠

Sorry but I think it's not a good idea to tell you who is he, you might lost your wonderful relationship ship, maybe worse, you might kill someone.

"Can't you just leave me alone, I'm fine nothings wrong with me, and can you stop bringing up my ex-boyfriend here, because it has nothing to do with you "

Chanie: Is that so t-then f-fine I was just fucking trying to help you, but I guess no, my effort we're useless. Now I know that I should never butt in in others business. Sorry for that (Y/N) *slams the door*

"Yah!!!!  CHANIE..  come back here!!" I did not mean what I say to her I'm just trying to solve it by my self.
--------------------time skip brought by night core-----------------

"Chanie? Can we talk?"

*silence*

"Chanie look, I'm sorry I don't mean to say those hurtful words with you, I know you we're just trying to help but I just want and I'm trying to solved this by my self, "

*silence*

"Chanie? *knocking* Chanie just please open this do---*open the door*"

I open Chanie's room but she's not there,
I walk in her night stand table, and I say a latter.

Dear (Y/N)
I know that you don't mean to say those harsh words to me,
But I think that I have to cool this off first, you're like my best friend, best cousin.  Your always there by my side whenever I have problems, you never leave my side when I'm sad, or mad.  I just want to be like you, I want to be by your side when your sad too,
I want to help you with your problem and it's kills me when you left me here and go to abroad because of your asshole ex-boyfriend, I have been crying for days you know. Im not crying cause you left me, I cried because I feel so useless. I wish I was by your side when he brokes your heart,  I wish I was there by your side like you did to me.
I'm sorry if I like to butt in on your stuff I was just trying to help.
                        
Sincerely
Chanie ♡

After reading her latter I feel the tears at the corner of my eyes.
I wanted to ask her where is she, but she blocked my calls.

Calling
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'This is the mail box for the number 01********** leave a massage after this tone *beep*'

"Chanie-ya I'm sorry for what I said to you, please answer my calls, I've been calling you for 15 times and all this operators say is 'This is the mail box' please just please you dont have to answer my call, instead just text me if received this"
------end mail box message ------

I feel guilty for what I said to her. It's make me more upset on Taehyung, because I have to argue with my cousin just because of him.

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