MY EX-BOYFRIEND

His Story

(Y/n) POV

Taehyung ask me to sit, as I choose to listen to what he want to explain.

He open his mouth to say something but what came out was only a sigh.

"(Y/n), like I said l like you. But I don't know how and when, it all happen without even me knowing." his voice sound so soft and...hurt?

"I thought that maybe I like you because of this one girl that you remind me about, and I don't know if what my feelings towards you is just because you look just like the girl I used to like.... " he stop for a while

"No, actually I love her. I love her so much that it hurts (y/n)" suddenly a tear start to form in his beautiful eyes.

"She was my princess, I tried to make her happy as much as I can. We were happy for the time we spent together. But I was so young I was blinded by lust, I was so stupid (Y/n). I-i-i..." tears are now sliding down to his cheeks.

Those cute cheeks that I love to kiss the most are now red.

As if he was so mad at himself as he said the word that strike my heart and started to form like a big black hole. It hurts.

"I cheated on her" he said the awful word without even looking at me.

Not like he can even though he want to.

He must feel so guilty saying this because I remind him of the old me. The Real me.

"W-why did you do that? " I choked my words as I ask him.

I can't help it, I want to know why he did cheat on me? Where did I go wrong?

"I-i was drunk that night, I was at my friend birthday party. I went there after our fight"

Yes, I remembered that.

We were arguing about a girl that keep on sticking on him like a glue and I got so jealous, and that lead us to bricking next we were already shouting at each other.

I just stared at him, while he continue his story.

"I was so frustrated, so I took a drink. Well more than I should have. When I was so drunk and the things that is happening around me was blurred. I was on the influence of the alcohol and I did not even know that a girl brought me back home."

He stopped talking and take a deep breath, preparing himself to admit the bad things he committed

"That girl bought me to my room and started to kiss me, I-I can't remember the rest all I know is that I let her do those things with me. The last thing I remember was the face of my girl that was standing at my door with the look of horror on her beautiful face"

I can hear his sobs.

He was crying and I didn't notice that I am crying to.

The painful memory started to come to my vision clearly.

"There was tears in her eyes (y/n), she was crying, I made her cry. I was an asshole. I broke her heart, her trust and I lost her. I lost the one I love"

He looked up at me, his eyes was so red. I just keep looking at him while I let my tears slide down from my check and wet my shirt.

"W-why didn't y-you come to her after t-that? "

I know I ran off as soon as he saw me.

If only he explained himself to me, hug me, talk to me, say that he's sorry. Why did he let me go?

Why did he let those two years slip out of his hands. The possibility of us staying together.

If only he reach out for me.

If only.. He said how much he loved me.

I was brought up to the reality as he speaks again.

"(Y/n), if you were in her position would you listen to what am I going to say? "

...........he was right, but why didn't he tried.

"(y/n), I love her so much that it reach to the point where I did not go through a day without feeling regretfull."

He wiped his tears with the back of his hands.

"there's none of those two years, those Twenty-two months, those seven hundred and thirty days and those seventeen thousand and five hundred twenty hours that did not make me feel like death. You didn't know how much I love her. And I'm afraid if one day she'll come back."

"And why are you afraid? "

"because I started to like someone other than her. It's feel so right but at the same time it feel so wrong to like you (Y/n), you make me feel alive. But the guilt is eating me up, it feels like I'm cheating on her again and I don't want to hurt her and especially you"

I was speechless of what he said.

All this time I was plotting a revenge on him to hurt him and to make the almighty kim Taehyung cry is totally useless.

Because he is already scattered into a million pieces.

I blame him for the pain I felt without thinking of what he might feel.

I was being self-centered bitch, all I think was he deserves to be hurt because he hurts me first.

I was a coward to run away instead of fixing our problem up together.

And I feel like a piece of shit, because now all I can do is just sit here looking at the guy I loved once. Broke down, hurt, and importantly the guy that I loved can't love anyone because of the guilt I cause him.

"I'm sorry Kim Taehyung "

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