And It Burns, But It Turns Out Golden

~Chapter Three~

I had the chance, but I missed it. I needed him like the beat inside my head. But I was too late. How am I supposed to compete with someone as perfect as Caitlin. My dark blond, wavy hair would fall messily. Not matter how long I tried to sort out my hair, I could be there for hours but it would never look better than Caitlins. Her sky blue eyes would stand out, you couldn't mistake them for anyone else, compared to my deep blue eyes, nothing stood out about them, but it depended on my mood, it's kind of weird, my eyes would change colour. Her gorgeous skinny body was the perfect size, she had to right to show her legs off, mine looked like tree stumps compared to her, no wonder I preferred baggy jeans and hoodies. I felt like dirt compared to her. Nathan couldn't of found himself a better girl.

"We can't speak anymore." Nathan said, he looked disgusted to see me.

"What why?!" I asked, almost on my knees begging him not to leave me. "I thought we were best friends."

I know I hated the word bestfriend but it was a lot better than being nothing to him.

"Best friends? What you on about? You're nothing to me, NOTHING." Nathan hissed, I backed away scared, this couldn't be happening.

"But Nathan, I, I love you." I was finally able to pronounce the words to him.

But Nathan became angrier and pushed me hard onto the floor, I hit my head hard on the side on the door as I fell. I felt the cold blood start to drip from the back of my head, becoming worse and worse each second.

"Love me?! What's wrong with you? What makes you think I would want to be with you?!" Nathan asked, taking a step back.

"But Nathan...." I was only able to say, the world starting spinning around me.

"Come on Nath, you've done your bit." I recognised the feminine voice hiss, Caitlins strong American accent made it obvious that it was her.

I managed to make out the perfect barbie girl figure, holding on tightly to Nathan, like the way I held onto him, every time I felt upset, or if I just wanted a hug. I'd be able to tell him almost everything, I couldn't have wished for a better best friend.

I watched as Nathan and Caitlin both walked off together, all over each other. I felt as if I wanted to sick out my heart, like there was no point living. But I couldn't, I felt trapped. I lay my hand down onto the floor, feeling something watery and cold. I quickly lifted my hand back up and looked down to find blood quickly covering the whole room, it was rising. But I couldn't escape, I couldn't move, scream, shout or anything for that matter. I just had to sit and wait for what was to come, the blood was rising. It slowly came up to my neck, I'd never felt so scared in a my life. Just as it reached the top of my neck.....

"Cassie!" I heard someone say, shaking me.

I took a massive breathe and my eyes suddenly opened. I found myself in the same place as I was last night. It was a dream. I scanned around the room to find everything was normal, the TV was still playing and there was no blood to see. I looked up to find Nathan looking down at me, uh oh.

"Nathan!" I said said, brushing my fingers through my hair worried of what I might of said whilst I was in my nightmare.

"Are you okay?" Nathan asked, his facial expression showing he was worried.

He still liked me! I sat up, and wiped the sleep out of my eyes, I felt dried up tears down my cheeks.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a stupid dream." I laughed nervously.

"It didn't sound stupid." Nathan said, sitting down next to me. "What was is it about?"

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "Oh it's nothing to worry about."

I realised tears were still pouring down my cheek. I laughed and wiped them away.

"Stupid me, crying over nothing." I said, faking a smile.

"Are you sure?" Nathan asked, pulling me in for a hug.

I sniffed and rubbed my nose. I couldn't really tell him about that dream could I? He would know that I was jealous and wouldn't think of me the same ever again.

"No, I'm fine." I lied. The most common lie I ever told.

I lay my head on Nathan's shoulder as he stroked my delicate hair.

"Thank God you're back." I smiled.

"Me too. I missed you lots whilst I was in America." Nathan said.

I turned round and looked up at him.

"Caitlins a lucky girl." I smiled.

I realised that it might of sound weird and quickly looked down and started to mess with my silver ring, which was given to me by my Nain before she passed away. The beautiful diamond would shine perfectly when it hit the sun, I've never took it off since she died, it was the only thing to remind me of her.

"Well I'm lucky to have a bestfriend like you." Nathan smiled, pushing my messy fringe from my eyes.

Only if he knew.