Why does he do this to me?

Going home and getting hateful messages on the bedroom phone

I got home and I felt like crying, I have cried a lot the last few years.

"Daddy I'm home!" I shout sounding happy so I don't worry him or my brother

"Hey sweetheart" my dad says weakly

"I'm going upstairs okay, I'll be down in a minute" I say going to kiss him in the cheek and then I make my way up the stairs

Once I get into my room, I check to see if their are any new messages and there are 3 new messages and I play them

"Hey Cynthia you freak! No one wants you here, maybe you should kill your self so we won't have to see your face ever again!" One message says and tears are starting to fall from my eyes

"Hey freak, go and die! No one will miss you, not even your own dad and mum! Hope we won't see you tomorrow!" Another message says

"Hey freaky bitch! You know John doesn't like you! No one does! Not even your own family! Not your mum or your dad or your brother, they just feel sorry for you! Maybe it would be best if you weren't here any more" another message says, I recognise that voice, it was stu, johns friend, they guy who asked me on a date. Now i was crying, sat on my bed thinking about how I should stop the pain. Then I thought about some of those pills I brought a few weeks ago that were in my drawer. I quickly wiped away the tears and ran over to the drawer and opened it pulling items of clothing out, desperate to find them and when I did, I ran into my own little bathroom shut the door and opened the lid putting 5 or 6 in my mouth and swallowing them, tears still coming

My dad and brother don't know I get bullied so much that I want to hurt my self to let the pain go, they only think it's a few people teasing me but not really meaning anything by it,