Why does he do this to me?

Why me?

John

Once we got to apt he hospital, the Doctors took a sleepy Cynthia out of my arms and rushed her into a room. I wasn't aloud I. Just yet. I noticed a little book that Cynthia always wrote in in class so I went over and took it from the desk and started reading:

Dear diary,

I walked I to school and went to my locker and took out all of my books and art things and when I turned around I saw John, he was on his own at his locker. I didn't realise I was staring until he looked at me and I blushed. He smiled and I blushed even more so I decided to walk away but when I got into the class room there was no one there

"Hey" I heard someone behind me and I turned round quickly

"Bloody hell you scared the hell out of me!" I shout putting my hand on my chest

"Sorry" John says

"Um hi John, I think I should get to my next class the bell will go in a minute and your friends will come and I don't feel like-" I start saying until John cut me off

"This is your next class Cyn" he said, wait he called me Cyn! He never called me Cyn, he always called me bitch and other horrible, hurtful words

"Oh... Yes it is" I could feel the heat on my face and I knew I was blushing.

"Cyn I'm sorry I-" John says until George, Ringo and Paul come Into the room

"Ey Lennon why ya talkin to that bloody freak for?" Paul says smirking

"She was talkin to me, beggin me to kiss me and I tried to get 'er off me" John says lying through his teeth

"So the freak is desperate i see?" George says smirking

"No I-" I begin to say, got tears sliding down my cheeks

"Don't lie! Admit it you're desperate, everyone knows it and even your friend knows it" Ringo cut me off

In that moment I thought about things that could help me get rid of the pain I feel inside, pills, sharp knifes..... Suicide. I have been bullied for years by John and his friends and I have been thinking about one options for months now.

If only they knew how hard my life actually is...

Love from

Cynthia Powell x

She was thinking about suicide for months now. I now know how hard life is for her and I regret ever hurting her.

"Why am I such a bloody idiot?!" I shouted

"You are an idiot" I heard someone say and I looked up. Mr Powell was stood in front if me

"I know I mean I 'av been bullying a beautiful, talented girl who I'm madly In Love with-" I cut my sentence short realising what I just said

"Finally!" Her dad said smiling

"I...uh..." I said rubbing the back of my neck

"You're in love Lennon" he says but then he doesn't look too well

"Sir are you okay?" I ask sounding worried and just after I said that, he collapsed and doctors came running to him and took him into another room

After the doctors left Cyns room, I went in to tell her the bad news

"Cyn" I say knocking on the door

"Yes?" She says weakly

"I need to talk to you about your dad" I say getting nervous

"Is he okay?" She asked

"He just collapsed" I say sitting next to her in the bed

"I...can we see him?" She asked me

"Come on" I say helping her up and slowly walking with her to her dad's room

Cynthia

"Daddy?" I say as we entered the room

"Cynthia, John" he says weakly

"John, take good care if my little girl, don't break her heart" he says to John

"I wasn't planning on it sir" he replies making me confused

"Cynthia, oh Cynthia my little girl! I love you so very much, I'm sorry I won't be around for your wedding and to see my little grand kids running about, But I want you to know that when you get married, I'll be right beside you and walking with you down the path to your future, but when you have babies, please tell them about me, I want you to know that I'll be watching over you and guiding you in the right direction. I love you my sweet little baby girl" he says while tears start falling

"I love you to daddy, so much. I love you" I say and then the machine starts making that noise when your heart stops

"Daddy no please daddy don't die! I need you! I love you!" I say walking forwards to him but Jon holds me back

"I'm so sorry miss Powell, he's gone" the doctor says to me and I turn around to face John and he hugs me tight

"I'm so sorry Cyn" he whispers in my ear

"John..." I say

"Hmmm?" He replies

"Kiss me please?" I say and he smiles a little but and kisses me while my tears still fall

"I know this isn't the right time to ask,but... Will you be my girlfriend?" John asked me

"Yes" I whisper

"John, I...I... Why does everything bad always happen to me?" I say

I'll update soon but I want to say thank you to LOVELYRITAMM for helping me with so much! She's amazing and thank you! :)