Pretty When You Cry (An Ethan Dolan fanfiction)

Chapter 11

We're driving to the beach with the windows down and have music on blast. I'm glad I decided to do this with two of my bestest friends. But I can't stop thinking about Ethan. He's constantly on my mind and I can't control it. Kissing him felt so right and I would do it again in a heartbeat.

We arrive at the beach and find a spot to chill at. It's so hot and sunny, Ethan, Grayson and I come here a lot. I take off my sheer shirt revealing my bikini. Jumping into the water felt so good and my mind was at ease for a while. I want to be more than just friends but I'm afraid it'll ruin our friendship. I've seen what falling in love with your best friend can do and I'm not willing to loose him. God, just the mare thought of that happening physically hurts me. He's one of the only guys that's ever treated me with respect and doesn't ask for anything but my company. Hopefully going back home after this day is over will give me a better chance of talking to him.

Hannah and Abel are having fun and eating. I lay on my back to catch some rays and close my eyes. I feel extremely sleepy and can't keep my eyes opened. I dream of Ethan's hands all over my body and his lips leaving delicate kisses. Sometimes my dreams about him get so erotic that I wake up with a sweat and heavy breathing. It's so weird and can get a little embarrassing.

Hannah nudges me to wake up.

"Mia... Wake up!" I wake up from my sleep.

"Wha- what? Where's Abel? Did something happen while I was asleep..."?

She looks around making sure no one is around.

"No Abel's not here, he went to get us some ice cream." She gets closer to me almost like she didn't want our conversation to be heard.

"Urm, you started moaning Ethan's name and began sweating... Mia, what on earth is going on?!" She says trying to contain her laughter.
I sit up quickly hoping nobody saw.

"Oh shit, what? What do you mean? I wasn't even asleep for that long." She looks at me and shakes her head.

"Abel and I saw that you fell asleep so we let you rest for like an hour but then you began doing... That... You know. I had to wake you or people will see."
Oh fuck! This is humiliating! Oh, my god! I can't even look at Hannah with out wanting to explode of embarrassment.

"Oh, my god... Wait, did anyone see me??" I'm super paranoid at this point.

"Luckily no, you were kinda whispering his name... I'm sorry but this is quite amusing." She laughs.

"Hann! It's not funny! I'm humiliated right now." I cover my face with my hands and plop back on the floor.

"Awwh, don't worry I won't tell Ethan about this." Why does she find this funny, I mean deep down I'm laughing but this happened again... But worst this time, I was out in public.

"Ha ha, your sarcasm kills me, really... but seriously I need to tell you something but you gotta promise not to say anything to anyone."

She nods.

"Okay, so yesterday evening I went over to Grayson and Ethan's to chill with him. And I was in his room and I bought up the whole Amanda situation and then it kinda just got a little heated up there..." She has her mouth wide open and is staring at me in shock. Classy.

"SHUT UP! You guys didn't-" I cut her off.

"Oh god no! no no no no. It got way to much and I swear I felt something." She looks at me as if to say she kinda knew something like this would happen.

"You look surprised but not as much as I thought." Well, she probably knew something was going on between us.

"To be quite honest with you, I'm not as surprised. I see the way you guys look at each other and how he can't stop staring at you. Girl, you got him wrapped around that pretty little finger of yours." I'm speechless.

I don't know if I should feel embarrassed with what just happened or just brush it off. I want to dig a whole right now and hide in it, why must I put myself in this kind of situation. Why is it so hard for me to admit my true feelings for him, if I can't even admit it to Hannah, how am I suppose to open up to Ethan about it.
I try to forget what happened and enjoy the rest of my day. Speaking to Ethan is the only way to let off some tension. But last time we did that it ended up in a make out session, which I wish never ended.