Pretty When You Cry (An Ethan Dolan fanfiction)

Chapter 35

It's been a good few hours since Hannah left with Gray and Ethan. I've been home doing completely nothing. I decide to call Hannah.

"Hello?"

"Hey girl! Is everything okay?" She says with a slight worry in her tone of voice.

"Yeah absolutely. Did you manage to get your car back?"

"Yeah, I'm currently driving behind E and Gray. Grayson drives like a grandma, oh man." We both laugh.

"I'm glad..." I pause.

"Okay, I know what's on your mind Mia. Spill." Fuck, how does she do that?!

"Wha- what? No, honestly it's nothing." I wonder around the kitchen.

"Mhm... Ethan... Right?"

I close my eyes and bite my lip.

"Yes... I mean, has he mentioned anything to you?" I sit on the kitchen counter picking at the loose seam on my jeans.

"He has actually. Well, both Grayson and Ethan have. They're just worried about you that's all. But Ethan was hoping you'd join us today." Shit, now I wish I'd gone with them.

"Right. Another time... Shit I just wanna talk to him but I can't." I sound nervous.

"Mia, come on. This is something you need to do... You both need to do." She's right.

"I know I know." I sigh.

We say our goodbyes and hang up. I jump off the counter and decide to sit out in my front yard. I need some fresh air. I lay on the grass and place my phone beside me. The sun beams so bright and feels warm against my skin. Fuck, this grass is itching the shit out of my skin. I sit up and cross my legs. I pick at the grass and look around. This neighbourhood is always so quiet. I don't like it sometimes.

I've been sitting outside for almost an hour. I hear a car from the distance coming, I wait a few seconds and see that it's Ethan and Grayson. Shit, should I leave or will I make it obvious. I pretend to go on my phone. I'm so lame, why can't I have the guts to just approach Ethan and talk to him.

I hear them get out of there car. But I see one of them walking towards me from my peripheral vision. I look up and it's Ethan. Well, here goes nothing.
I squint my eye and put my hand over my eyes to block the sunlight.

"Hey you." He walks over to me.

I stand up and brush off any grass left on my jeans. I look at him.

"Hey" I can't help but smile when I look at him. He smiles back.

"This is probably really bad timing, but... Can we talk? Please...?" He walks towards me and is standing inches away from me. Oh shit, here comes that feeling I thought I'd never get back.

"I was hoping we could talk actually. Should we go inside?" I innocently put a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"For sure." He smiles. He gently puts his hand behind my back. Was that accidental?

We walk back inside and up to my room. My windows are opened and you can feel a cool breeze of fresh air. He sits on my bed whilst I close the door. He looks so good right now. Even in moments like this I can't stop having thoughts about him. This is bizarre and a little annoying. Come on Mia, this is serious.

I walk over and sit beside him. There's a moment of silence until both of us speak at the same time.

"I'm sorry-" We both say. We laugh a little. Ah, I've missed his laugh.

"You first." He says.

I look at him for a while before I form my words.

"Ethan..."

"Tell me the truth..." I look him in the eyes with furrowed brows. Okay, my heart is beating out of my chest and my palms are sweaty.

"Please..." I whisper.

He turns to look at me. There's a pause.

"Mia... I don't love Amanda. Everything she said was a lie. I would never do anything to hurt you. Before I knew I had feelings for you, Amanda and I tried to work things out but I never felt anything towards her anymore. She twisted everything to make you think I was some kind of douche. I hate myself for putting you through all of this. I hate that I wasn't able to hold you. I miss you so fucking much. What happened that night wasn't what it seemed. I told her not to come over because I didn't want to see her anymore. But she gets what she wants. In that moment that I saw you come outside, I knew Amanda would try to say and do anything to hurt you. Please... You have to believe me... I.." He looks down.

My heart almost stops. I feel so many emotions right now. I hate making him sad, it aches to watch him say all of this. He can't blame himself for something he couldn't control. Amanda is an evil being who loves to destroy other people. She hates the fact that Ethan and I are getting closer now, it was her lose. She treated him like a doormat. Shit, even I don't deserve him.

"Hey... Look at me." I whisper. I turn my body so I'm completely facing him. I put my arm around his shoulders.

"I know what Amanda is like. But deep down I thought you still had feelings for her. It broke me because... Shit" I pause to avoid crying. I turn away, I can't let Ethan see me cry.

"Hey hey, it's okay..." He gently says and holds my cheek to face him.

I manage to hold back my tears.

"I should've just heard you out instead of spending days avoiding you. I'm sorry... I'm... So sorry." I lean my head against his. He places his hand on my thigh and caresses it.

"It's gonna be okay again. We'll make it work."

His words comfort me. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Communication is key, and we're both getting better at it. He holds my cheek and we look at one another like we're about to kiss. Oh shit. We get closer and closer, and before we realise our lips touch and it feels euphoric. Our lips move in sync and I accidentally let out a moan. See, I can never control my moans around him. My self conscious laughs at me. We pull away and breathe rapidly. I let out a giggle and so does he. Things are going back to normal and he looks so happy. We giggle and I playfully take his hat and wear it. We hug and I feel every inch of his ethereal body against mine. I nuzzle my face between his neck. I feel his smile grow and he places kisses on my neck.