Sometimes I wonder
Wonder if you flip back the pages
Of our time
Of our life
Just to see if we were happy
Even though I never was
Never am
I makes me say damn
Because the secrets that we hold
They break me down
Make me hit the ground
I don't want this anymore
I have no life
I have no soul
I have no mind
I have a body though
Yet it has scars
Scars that I made
They remind me of those times
Times where I couldn't
Couldn't go on
But when I made those permanent doodles on my skin
They made me okay
Made me forget the pain
Gave me away when someone looked
Looked at my leg
I thought my life was perfect
But then my light failed to rise that night
It made blind to my life
To my time
I locked myself away
Never to come out
I was locked away
Locked away
Locked away
Into a cage
They told me to pray
But who would I pray
There's no God
For if there was
My future wouldn't be but thought
A thought made by others of my lone
For I am alone
Alone on this trip
Across the Grand Canyon
Grand Canyon of hate
Of debate
Because I hate it
Hate myself
Hate the trip that I have to take
And I debate
About I should stay
Or I should go
Because clearly your not there
Not there to save me from this catastrophe
There's no maybe
It's not hazy
I have made up my mind
This time it's permanent
It's something you can't erase
Erase this pain
For this a gain
A gain for me
And maybe for you
For I am not there anymore
I'm six feet under
