Once Upon a Masquerade

Chapter 6

"Mother if I really wanted to date someone I would." Which was a total lie, just so I could get her off of my back. Ever since I came to have lunch with her, she's been pestering me about dating. "What about that boy from the ball?" She ask me, while taking a bite out of her tuna salad sandwich. "Oh...well we are just friends." Which was also another lie. Because friends do not act like how we act with each other. At least not any of the friends I imaginatively had. "Uh huh. I saw the way you looked at him. Sweetheart I know that look, I look at your father the same way." Smiling to herself, she continues on "I mean you're not getting any younger and I don't think you would want someone else to snatch him up. So show him exactly what you want, exactly what you need from him." My mother was right. Maybe if I showed him what it felt like to be with someone who genuinely cared about him, his whole mind set would change. "That's not a bad idea at all. Thanks mom" I smile, taking the last bite of my taco salad. After kissing my mother on the cheek goodbye, I get in my car and nearly race to my apartment without trying to get a ticket.

Not even taking a breath, I rush out of the car. Heading straight for his door. Knocking on the door, I hear him. My heart was beating so fast, I didn't know exactly what I was going to say. It was too late, he was standing right in front of me. He looked like he was sleeping before I had the audacity to wake him up, I could gather from the way he looked so tired and his clothing. "Hey." I say as enthusiastically as I could manage. "Hey?" Alexander was confused, why wouldn't he be? "Can I ask you something?" My hands were starting to shake. Oh God. Don't freak out Guinevere. "Yeah."
Taking a deep breath I graciously rush out "Please have dinner with me tonight?" I didn't look at him, I was scared to see the look in his eyes if he rejected me. "Sure." Snapping my head up to look at him. He's smiling at me. A genuine smile from Alexander, that was rare. "Okay. Well I'll cook, and you can just come over around 8. If that's okay with you?"
"That's fine Guinevere. I'll see you then." Closing the door, I take my oppurtunity to walk to my apartment basically skipping like a little girl with a crush. I am so happy he said yes. Hopefully tonight goes great.

It was 8:15, and dinner was ready. There was no sign of him. He was late.
Which means he stood me up. Which also meant that I was an idiot to think he may want the same thing I wanted. Hearing someone knock on the door, I slowly walk to it. Opening the door I come face to face with him. "Hey." Kissing my cheek, he walks past me into my apartment. This was going to be a long night. "Hey." I say so shortly. "Awe come on. Don't be like that. I was late because I had to run some errands." He said while taking off his coat and putting it over my couch. I go sit down at the table deciding whether to believe him or not. Though if I wanted a nice evening with him, I would just have to put it behind me for now. "It's fine Alexander. I just didn't want your food to get cold." With that being said I start to eat. Looking at him, seeing if he took a bite of the food. I watch in astonishment as he stuffed his face like it was his last meal. "Alexander...slow down." Worried clearly etched on my face. "I'm sorry...just haven't ate all day." He says while taking a sip of his water. "You should have stopped to get lunch or something while you were out."
"It's fine. I'm fine. Let's just eat Guinevere." And that's what we did. We ate dinner, and by the time I was finished I didn't really know what to say. "Alexander do you want to watch a movie?" Maybe that could be nice to do with each other. "Yeah that's fine."
Putting both of our dishes in the sink, I go over towards my DVD player where all my movies are. I pick one in particular Something Borrowed. One of my favorite movies. Putting the movie in the DVD player I go and sit on a couch where he already is sitting. Once the movie started I hear him mumble, "Women and their chick flicks." Which caused me to chuckle. After an hour of the movie starting, he was laying in my lap. Though I didn't mind at all, considering I was playing with his hair. "Why can't she just tell him that she loves him? Her best friend isn't even all that great as a person." He says while pointing to the TV. Alexander has been doing this the whole entire time the movie has started, over analysing the movie. "Alexander it's just a movie, wait until the end." I giggle.
Suddenly, he sits up slowly just getting that familiar look on his face. Looking at me, I see his eyes go from confused to defensive in a split second. "I should go." He says.
"What? The movies not over yet. We haven't gotten to the good parts. Ethan gets hit in the nose." Trying to make light of the tension in the air. What did I do wrong for him to switch up on me? "I don't care about the movie. If you don't want me leave than fine, let's go to your room. I've had a long day, I had dinner with you like you wanted. I told you before I don't do this shit Guinevere and if you can't understand that than please leave me be. Stop trying to get me to change my mind because it isn't going to happen." No this isn't what I wanted from the beginning. Sex wasn't suppose to be apart of this. But I couldn't do much to change his mind considering it was already made up with one thing and that was it. "No...I want to have a nice night with you. Without sex." My chin starts to shake, for the fact that I have been holding back tears. "What do you not understand? I don't want to be with you! I just want to fuck you! And if you can't give me what I want than I will go and get it from someone else!" He screamed at me. Nothing I seemed to do mattered. Not a single damn thing. He was just a heartless asshole. Well if that was how he wanted it than so be it. "Fine." I get up and grab his hand and lead him back into a room. "Guinevere..." I knew he was shocked at my actions, but I didn't care anymore. I didn't care that he broke me. I was done with trying. I'll do what he wants. My virginity was sacred to me and I want so badly to give it to him so this was it. There would be no coming back from it. Reaching my bedroom and sitting on my bed, I take off clothes and proceed to get all the way on the bed. While he still stands there shocked. Motioning for him to come join, he does hesitantly. And that's when I knew this would never happen. We would never happen. I would rather have him sexually than not at all. If another woman came into his life it would break my heart. Closing the distant between us he kisses me, and starts taking his clothes off. 

He is completely naked, kissing me while I'm laying on my bed naked as well. The first time anyone has ever seen me like this. I've never felt so vulnerable. It was a very scaring thing to process. "Guinevere are you sure you want to do this?" Alexander ask me a little bit too late. "Yes." One simple word was all it took. I couldn't go back after this. This was the done deal and I had to live with it afterwards.