Once Upon a Masquerade

Chapter 11

A week has passed and every day I continued to go to work and school as if my life was normal before the devil himself entered my life. Though things were getting better between us, our friendship was developing at a slow pace. I liked it that way. But I couldn't hide the fact that I was still in love with him, especially with the jealousy raging inside me whenever I saw a girl text his phone or call him. He spent most of his time with me which was actually very surprising. Because he never wanted to spend time with me before. So this was definitely something that I would have to get use to. Especially since he is at my house every damn day.

Walking up the steps to get to the second floor of my apartment complex I see him already waiting there for me. "Alexander I really need to get you a key for your own use because you just showing up at my door is really starting to get annoying." I say out of breath going to my door to unlock it. "That would be really nice Guinevere. I think I would have a lot of use for that key considering I'm literally here every single day now." Which too freaking true. "Don't remind me." Groaning I walk inside my house and turn on the living room light. Placing my keys on the dining room table I take my shoes and stretch out. Turning around I didn't realize he was right behind me until our noses were touching. And instant heat pooled into my chest and stomach. This was too difficult, especially on my part pretending not to be in love with him anymore.

Instantly recalling the worst memory of last weekend when I let my guard down by drinking too much. "Alexander I want you." I said while hanging all over him, getting on top of his lap I straddle him. "Guinevere you are trashed, you obviously don't know what you are doing right now." He gripped my hips and tried to pry myself off of him. It was not working, apparently I had a death grip and was not letting go. "Fine, just kiss me than." I say leaning down towards his lips. Wanting so badly to just be held and kissed by him no matter the consequences in the morning would be, I could live like that if I had to. "Guinevere, you're killing me..." I hear him say. Boy, was he killing me too. "Just one kiss. Don't worry I wont remember it in the morning." Knowing damn well that was a huge lie. "That's the problem, if I kiss you I want you to remember it." He cupped my cheek, gripping my waist holding on so tight as if I was going to float away. "Than make it unforgettable." I say, just as he kissed me my whole body was on fire. He was the man I still wanted no matter how badly I tried to deny it. I have always wanted him, and I don't think I'll ever stop wanting just him. We kissed very passionately for a good five minutes. It was intense it left us both breathless. "Guinevere I want to be with you." That is the last thing I heard before I blacked out into a deep sleep. 

Ever since that night I have pretended like it never happened. I basically made it look like I didn't know what he was talking about, as if I lost every memory from that night. I told him it was all a blur to me. He seemed disappointed, but I wasn't ready for our relationship to move past us being friends. It just started getting better. So why would I ruin that just so he could go back to the way he was.

But being this close to his face I needed to realize that it was too soon. Looking into his eyes I see it, I see what I've been seeing for the past two weeks. It was a mixture of regret, sadness, and...love? I knew better than to ever say that. "I'm hungry you want to order in?" I ask him going over to the couch sitting down. "No, I have a date sort of. I work with the girl. But I doubt it will turn into anything." he says coming to sit down next to me. Funny, he couldn't even eat dinner with me. "Sounds fun. Tell me how it goes." grabbing the remote I turn on cartoons and purposely ignore him. My jealousy was flaring on the inside. Why would he think that was a good idea? Because you've made it pretty clear to him that you don't want him. Even though you really do. Fuck me and my stupid brain. "Guinevere if you don't want me to go I can stay."
"No Alexander, go on your date." I pushed.
"Guinevere... I can reschedule. Its not that important anyway." he says putting his hand on my knee. "Don't do that. Just go dammit." I turn to look at him and he had a sad smile. "I don't want to go." We were definitely going to go back and forth on this. "Fine don't go. I'm not the one missing out on having sex, you are. And don't say it's my fault." Pushing his hand away I get up to get a drink. "Guinevere I haven't had sex since you and I. I think I'll be fine." Was that really true? If so that means he didn't have sex with that girl or any other girl for the matter. Maybe I needed to be a little easier on him. It was difficult though considering I didn't want to feel weak. Or let him make me feel like I was nothing to him again. "Congratulations you can actually live with out sex from a woman." I say sarcastically. Grabbing a glass cup from my cabinets I put a couple of ice cubes in it and pour a little whisky in the cup as well. Gulping all of that down I grab the bottle and take it with me to the living room. Sitting it on my coffee table I pour some more into my cup. Laying back on my couch I try to relax a little. Taking sip after sip I continuously keep drinking. "Guinevere stop." Alexander says trying to grab my cup from me. "Don't tell me what to do." I say yanking my glass back so he doesn't try to grab it from me again. Gulping down the last bit I set it on the table. "You're a real pain in the ass." he says while raking his hand through his hair. "Yeah well you don't have to deal with it" I look at him. He looks at me. "We both know I do. I need a dose of you everyday." He says leaning further down to where my lips are. Alexander was going to kiss me and I need to let it happen. My tipsy self wanted it to happen. Wanted every part of his body on mine. But maybe a kiss would have to do. Before he kissed me I heard him whisper, "I think I love you." No. Than he kissed me. An earth shattering, knee shaking, body trembling kiss. It was not like any other in this world and I didn't want anyone else. He's mine and I'm his especially in this moment. Moaning into the kiss I pull him closer to me. I was losing breath but I was gaining something else. Him.
Breaking away from our kiss, I look away from him. My heart beating so wildly. What did I just do? Give in. Maybe you needed to. No I didn't. I couldn't even contain the attraction I had to this man. "Guinevere are you okay baby?" he says stroking my face, trying to get me to look at him. Tears were forming in my eyes. "Just go. Leave me alone." I say pushing him off of me and sitting back on the couch. "Guinevere... I'm sorry." Alexander gets up and goes to the door. Looking at me one last time, he leaves out of the door shutting it back behind him. Getting up I go lock my door. Leaning back against it I just shut my eyes and wish this never happened. "I love you." I whisper.

Okay my readers I'm having a brain fart honestly. What would like to happen in the next chapter of my story? If you guys can comment and give me some pointers. Thanks xoxo.