Once Upon a Masquerade

Chapter 9

Waking up the next morning I feel terrible. It's as if I was drunk and woke up with a hang over. But I knew the truth, it was because I spent the whole night crying. Today was Saturday, that means I have lunch with my mother. Which was not something I was looking forward to considering last night events. Though I'll try to put up a front to at least make my mother happy. 

Getting out of bed I go straight to my bathroom and turn on the shower. Taking my clothes off I almost step into the shower when I suddenly hear my phone ring. This is not the time mother. Going back into my room I grab my phone and answer, "Hello." 

"Hello sweetheart. I was calling to let you know lunch will be served around 1 o'clock." She says. "Yes mother I will be there. I'll see you soon." After I say that I hang up the phone. Hurrying to get in the shower because the time on my cellphone said 11 I wash my body and my hair. Scrubbing to get his touch off of me.
Finally once finished with my shower I get out and wrap my towel around me.

Once in my room I grab a pair of brown skinny jeans with a black floral laced shirt. Putting on some regular white socks I put on my black vans. Finish getting dressed I go into the bathroom to brush my teeth and hair also do my make up as well.

Finally being finished with getting ready, I am about to leave my apartment. Walking out the front door I lock it. Guinevere don't even look, you'll just start crying again. So I don't. Instead I just walk down the stairs to my car. Getting in I turn it on and head to my parents house. This was going to be a long day for me.

"Mom I have tried everything to be with this man. Literally everything. What else am I suppose to do?" I say to my mother, we were talking about the incidents with Alexander. But I didn't want to talk about those hurtful events. "Did you...you know do it?" Really mother!? Looking at her as if she lost her mind, I knew we were open with each other but I never told her I was still a innocent..well before I met Alexander I was. "I...lost it to him mom..." My heart felt so heavy, it was about to fall in the pit of my stomach. Mother's face changed from curious to straight sadness. No mom don't pity me, that's the last thin I want. "Oh sweetheart. I'm sorry." She puts her hand over mine and I look away. I don't want to ever show how weak I can be. Especially in front of the strongest woman I know. "Can we just not talk about this anymore?" I ask. My mind pleading for her to just drop it. "Of course sweetheart. So how's school and work going?" 

My mother and I talked until about 4 o'clock in the middle of the day. We were catching up and it felt really good. She told me of the things she is trying to accomplish around the house. Which involved changing carpet and hard wood floors as well. Honestly I wasn't surprised at all considering she changes the house every two months. 

Leaving my mom's house the day, I go to my apartment, nothing but sleep on my mind. It took me about fifteen minutes to get back to  my apartment. Once I got out of the car after I turn it off, I walk up the stairs to my door, unlocking it I go inside and close the door. Locking the door I finally go and take my shoes off. Going straight to my room, I take everything off except my bra and underwear and get in bed. Sleep envelopes me as if I would just be consumed in all the comfort my bed has to offer. 

Waking up suddenly I look at my clock sitting next to bed on the side table. Oh my goodness I slept literally all night. It was two in the morning. But I have to say it was the best sleeps I have had in a very long time. Hearing a bang, I jolt forward automatically becoming scared as to what it may be. Getting out of bed I go in to the living room, it didn't seem like anyone broke in to my apartment. I hear the bang again and it made me jump right out of my skin. "Guinevere please open up. I know you're here, I saw your car in the parking lot." Alexander. Oh god and it sounded as if he was drunk. This was not the night to deal with this. Hearing him bang on my door again I go to it, about to unlock it, I stop myself. If I let him in he will talk me into forgiving him. And that is not what I wanted to do just yet. So I just stand there silent as can be. "Guinevere I messed up. I just wish you could understand I am not the guy to do commitments. I'm terrified of them. I'm terrified of you and the way you make me feel at times... That's why I always leave. Because you...you get into my head with your beautiful eyes and gorgeous smile. And my goodness your sweetness I love the way you care for me even though I can be an asshole. Guinevere I'm so sorry." Standing there shocked, I hug myself. Drunk people do tend to tell the truth. So I do believe him but I'm putting my foot down. He can sleep in his own bed tonight and wallow in his stupid hang over. Goodnight Alexander, maybe I'll deal with you tomorrow. Looking at the door one last time I walk away. I couldn't give in no matter how much I wanted to. He's already gotten too much of me at once he doesn't need to keep getting more.

Walking back to my bedroom, before I shut my door I hear him bang on my door one last time and yell "Shit!"
Shutting my door, I climb into bed finally content and able to rest a few more hours. I fall asleep deeply.