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Chapter ten

"You've been taking your medicine right?" Dr. Sullivan asks him. The boy with the blonde curly locks fiddled with his thumbs. "That's what your parents have been telling me. " Dr. Sullivan says. " are they lying to me Ashton?" She asks. Ashton didn't talk much but he talked to Ryder. He loved to talk to Ryder but, he made her kill herself. He liked to imagine things. He liked to play inside his head. He liked it cause he controlled it. And he liked control.

During Ashton's schizophrenic journey he created a girl who was Ryder who he eventually became very attached to. Ashton didn't like being different because he thought being different was bad.

This stopped him from living a normal life like have friends and other stuff. Everything in his mind was different than in reality and he liked that.

But, when he started taking his pills Ryder disappeared. In his mind she had killed herself but what had actually happened was the pills kicked in. He realized she was just a figment of his imagination. A mere dream. She was nothing more. And she was nothing less. She was just never there.

Everything made sense when he started to put two and two together. He hated Dr.Sullivan all her questions, and all the medicine she wanted him to take. He wanted to kill her. So in his mind he did. He hated his real parents so much so in his mind he killed them too. He hated his brothers with a passion so deep inside him he wanted to kill them. So once again in his mind he killed them too.

Ashton wanted to be innocent. Ashton didn't like being bad. So he made Ryder do it. He made Ryder bad. He loved her with all his heart and since her 'death' he's been a wreck. He just sits on his bed and waits for her to appear even though he knows she won't.

Ashton would much rather live in the imagination and fantasy he has created in his head even though he knows he can't be there forever. One day he will have to choose reality over his fantasy but, as of right now that won't be happening. He will stay in his state of hurt until he really realizes she won't come back. She never will.