From Lonely to Loved

Chapter 6

Sarah

Jack's eyes started tearing up. He began to cry. 'It's okay Jack. It's okay. I'm not going anywhere. Don't listen to him. He's just a douche.' He buried his head in my neck. His tears dropped down and the rolled down my neck.

'Please don't go Sarah. I just got you. My first friend. Please don't be faking it. Please don't go.'

'I'm not going Jack. Don't listen to him.'

'It hurt this time. More than others. It was a different type of pain. It wasn't just the usual pain of name-calling. He threatened to hit me. But that was my fault. I fought back at him. I felt like I had confidence. But it got me nowhere. I just got in more trouble.'

'Hey, calm down. It's okay.' Moving my hand to his face, I wipe his tears away. 'Just breathe. Deep breaths. You're okay. I'll protect you.'

'Thank you.' He sobbed.

'It's okay Jack. I'm here.' Those were our final words, then we lay there silently, just gazing at the sky.

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It was happening, really happening! Jack was my friend! And I hope that soon he'll be mine. In the way I want to be with him. I'd gotten home after being with him and headed straight to my room so my parents didn't notice. Once in my room, I played my music; the song Words by Train was the song that came on. I loved this song, so I sang along 'use them as firewood, and let 'em burn'.

Laying down on my bed, I closed my eyes and let the song play. Music meant everything to me, I listened to it when I was happy, sad, angry, or confused. It painted a story that I could relate to and it helped me get through tough times. However even when I was sad, the music I listened to was positive, because I hate negative music. It makes me feel terrible inside and I just can't listen to it.

There was a knock at my door, I turned down my music and said 'come in'.

It was my mum who walked in, she said 'please turn down the music Sarah, it's really loud.' My mum was a beautiful woman. She had long red hair and she had a wonderful personality. She was the most caring person I knew. She was always there for me, even when I didn't need her help. She keeps me safe. Always. But sometimes she can be a little too protective over me.

'Okay, Mum.'

'Thank you.'

She was about to leave when I called out to her 'Mum?'

'Yes, dear?'

'How do I get someone to like me?'

'Are you lonely?! Are you getting bullied?!'

'No not lonely, I have a friend.'

'What about bullied?'

It took me a while to answer. What could I say? I don't want to lie to my mum but if I do then she'll make me move schools and I won't be able to be with Jack. 'No...'

'Are you sure?' There was a lot of concern in her voice.

Looking into her eyes, I said; 'a little bit. But only because I'm someone's friend. I... I... I want to be more than his friend. But he's not ready yet. He only just met me and he isn't sure I'm telling the truth when I tell him I want to be his girlfriend.'

'So what does that have to do with you being bullied?'

'He gets bullied. He's like the schools emotional punching bag. I feel terrible for him. I wish I could do more but all I can do is be his friend.'

'So, the kids at your school bully him and because they saw you talking to him they bully you too?'

'It's not just some kids that bully him, though, it's the whole school!'