Uncontrollable • phan

Chapter 1

I wake up in the middle of the night with a few beads of sweat on my forehead. Due to the terrible , dark and depressing dream I had. I've been having these kinds of dreams ever since that event that occurred a month ago. My dreams have always been bad but they have only gotten worse. Of course I've gotten used to the horrid dreams, but I haven't gotten used to the feeling of remorse, guilt and sorrow.

I tried running away from my problems only to realize I am made of up my problems and mistakes , and I am only creating more. If only I can start all over. Knowing me, I would probably fuck it up again though, but that would never happen though so I might as well get used to myself and my feelings. Although I am even scared of myself.

I turn over to check the time on my phone. It's quarter after 4, in the morning. Now it's going to take a while to fall back asleep as my mind is constantly thinking. My brain hardly ever shuts up. Unless I'm talking to people which I don't really enjoy. Only because I'm scared to get too close to someone or let anyone in considering my emotions can run so deep that they take over my actions making me uncontrollable.

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I open my eyes from yet another nerve wrecking dream to the sound of the alarm on my phone. It seems it has been going on for 10 minutes.

I force myself to get out of bed with all the mental and physical strength I have. As I start to get ready for another boring day.

Heading into the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee. I trip on my hair straightener. "Fuck my life" I mutter to myself limping to the kitchen now.

After making a cup of coffee, I head out the door and down the 5 flights of stairs of my flat I live in and catch the bus just in time.

As soon as I get to work, which is 'Eb Games' , my manager introduces me to one of the new employees. "Dan, meet your new co-worker Phil.", Cliff my manager says a little too enthusiastic.

The man with jet black hair and ocean blue and emerald green eyes, smiles and reaches his hand out to shake mine. "Hello there, Dan."

His aura is so positive, I can feel it radiating on to me. "Nice to meet you Phil." , I say with a half smile.

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Phil s pov

My first day at my new job is finally over and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. My co-worker Dan is oddly, very attractive. I want to be his friend.

So I decide to go up to him just before he leaves through the front doors.

"Hey Dan.", I say as he turns to face me. "Oh hi, Phil.", He responds with a light smile.

"I was wondering if you would like to get some coffee and get to know each other a bit.", I ask eagerly.

He looks a bit unsure at first as he thinks about his answer. "Sure, I don't see why not.", He finally answers with a warm expression.

A/n hey guys. I'm gonna update chapters every three days? But I hope u enjoyed the first chapter .  And maybe vote on it? Idk tell me what u think and how you think the story will go and maybe what u would like to see in the book so I can make sure u enjoy the story as it goes on . But ya um ttfn (((: