The Baldilox Chronicles

Chapter - Starting the Journey

                             "Life as a youngin shouldnt be so rough" Tupac couldnt have said it better. Now Im going based off my perception and how I was taught to be be. I, just like everyone, run into some interesting one of  a kind situations that test my ability not only as a human being with morals but my patience. In my eyes every situation introduces a lessons of some form. Now how you take the lesson and utilize it, that's what makes you, you. I will not speak for anyone else because one I can't and two I just don't really want to . This book is just about my experiences and what i have learned from them. My mom has been pushing me to utilize my gift for writing and she keeps saying im funny so here it is the infamous Baldilox Chronicles.. It is named that because I'm bald. The majority of people say that I look just like Amber Rose and I can see the resemblance but its not something I brag about. I shaved my head about 14 years ago due to issues at home. I thought it was a resolution to the self harm.  So for a while I had my individuality with my hairless head and I liked it because noone wanted to be around the chick who shaved their head. I mean in thier eyes a woman isnt a woman if she doesnt have hair to pull. Blah, I will always be a woman whether I have hair or not. I dont think God makes mistakes. I have no problem walking alone and neither should you no matter what you look like. I cut off a lot of people who judge or make fun of people who look different because Im fucking different and people use to bully me all the time and now since I am up to their standards in looks they dont but i still remember what that felt like. I have no problem standing up for people with small voices. I know what it feels like not to have anyone stand up for me. Although I was blessed with an awesome mom she doesnt know how to handle me due to what is a little off in my brain. I dont think the way other people do and I dont learn the way eveyone else does. I knew since a young age that there was something off with me. I just didnt know what and for all of my childhood and some of my adulthood no one has been able to clearly say what I have. I just want to give someone something  to read who knows they are different. I want you to know you aren't alone. There are people who look normal who are battling wars all alone on their own. Im going to take a chance and put my personal thoughts and open my mind to you in hopes that it will help in some way. Of course I dont know how it will help or if it will but it would be nice to know that my craziness is appreciated. I am an emotionally rollercoaster with a couple different voices in my head. Im a scAtter thinker so I jump from topic to topic. I fall for potential in people so that means I fall on my face a lot. I have anger outbursts and bouts of crying. Im all over the place but in one place at the same time. I dont judge people but get judged a lot.  Ok so thats the first chapter Ill post more in a little while later today. Bye.