Missing

Chapter 3 : Realization

You know those stories about a shy/crazy/depressed/confident/defensive girls that don't really pay any attention to the boy but they still know they exist and for some reason they like them and she falls for him,well knowing that this is real life and I honestly know that Amanda will get the best of the best and I will be stuck under her beautiful shadow.

What am I kidding?? I'm as normal as normal can get,maybe the parents thing gets in the way but I was too young to remember them

Anyways, Charles told me he would go with Nana to the hospital to get her checked ,yes I call her Nana.

I'm stuck at home alone with a bit of Gregory Alan Isakov and Metric in the background,I enjoyed listening to the soothing sound of music and watching how I got home just in time before it started pouring,but knowing me I slipped out of the house and into the woods to enjoy the scent of wet dirt and pine with a bit of getting completely soaked on the side,I spun around laughing at my slight oddness,I'm slowly but surely realizing that maybe my life was to be spent near a fireplace in a coffee/bookstore called M's

Yeah,that's what I want...a cute shop and I don't even mind if I don't study med school,I wanted the peaceful life

I laid in the dirt with a yellow raincoat and rubber matching boots,my jeans soaked and my hair muddy, I shut my eyes

"What are you doing" a deep husky almost musical voice came from the forest entry,I didn't care to peek at who it was,I was too happy to care

"Being me" wow...cheesy much?

"Can I join you?" It asked again still not giving a fudge I nodded

"Yeah" I softly said opened my eyes to see who it was

Oh how convenient Mr.Carter

He laid next to me,his hair becoming damp and equally as muddy we just stared at the tall pine trees,seeing how the raindrops looked like little circles while they fell

"Why are you here?" He asked quietly,almost too scared to break the comfortable silence

"I could say the same to you" I whispered

"Well you are the one in the bright yellow coat,so I thought it was a dead body or something" he faced me and out of the corner of my eye I saw his blank expression

"It should have been" I shut my eyes again,I'm not suicidal,just that I don't know why I'm here,there are so many people that will be remembered,but people don't know who or what I am here to do apart from fucking and expanding this disgusting population

"No" he whispered making me tired,I slowly drifted to sleep as raindrops slid down my face,I felt at peace even if it was with him by my side,a guy I'm pretty sure I will never be a part-ofs'-life
-"Hello Sara"
"Please stop"
"Why should I?" He slowly stalked closer,I moved back and hit a hard wall
"Go away" I ran for it,my breath hitched and my adrenaline running I felt the sweat and tears trickle down my face
"Let me go!!" I tugged hard on the man who had grabbed my arm I was not going to be the victim here
"Why should I?" He smirked evilly while a shot of pain ran through my body from my neck
Everything was going grey and black like a phosphene just worse
"Get the fuck away from her" was all I heard after the zipper of my dress was pulled down and everything went black
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I shot up,cold sweat and dried tears I was loudly wheezing and almost whimpering

"You ok?" Carter barged through the door and I found myself in a strangers bed

"I have to go now" I speed walked through his house leaving him in his room,I found my wet cloths and tried putting them on before he stopped me

"You aren't wearing that,here" he handed me a black and purple hoodie and a pair of small boots

"Why are you being nice to me....wait...I don't think I want to know.." I whispered the last part more to myself that to him,I felt my pale skin go from dead to ghost

"No reason" he said casually walking towards the front door opening it to see it was thundering and pouring...hard

"I'm leaving now,bye" I walked out to be greeted by a beautiful curtain of rain which made me think of how everything could go from bad to worse really quick

"Wait!!" I heard him scream,dude stop,I like the rain too much to be offended

"What?!" I yelled the rain becoming noisy

"Where do you live!?!" He asked,he was almost my neighbor

"Four houses down!!" I responded,wait did I just do something as stupid as tell him Where.I.Live?!

"Ok!!" I turned to walk away but saw him behind me

"What do you need!?" I didn't mean to sound harsh I'm sorry...

"Nothing!" He kept following me,when I got home he was the first to slip inside...really??

"What do you need Carter?" I asked almost undressing in front of him,it isn't like he's a virgin or whatever

"Woah,we barely got here baby" I knew a snarky remark would come,I was only in some briefs and a tank top

"Why do you have briefs on?" He asked almost jealous,ha ha bitch

"Boyfriend" I said casually,I haven't even had my first kiss

"Oh...ok" his face dropped but lit up when he checked out my body,I don't what he was looking at,there is nothing else but fat

"Really?" I asked narrowing my eyes playfully,why was I being playful? Oh well go with the flow I guess

I think I'm bipolar

"So...would your boyfriend mind if I made-out with his soon to be ex-girlfriend?" He smirked the heat in my cheeks was getting out of hand

"Yes." I said drily

"Good thing I didn't ask him" he smirked moving closer,his raspy voice going deeper,shit. Images of that night flashed through my head,the man stalking towards me with a grin like the cheshire's but I think even that mad cat wouldn't be so cruel

Unintentionally I fell to the ground and cupped my face hyperventilating backing towards the wall slowly but at the same time urging to be held up

"Please don't" I managed to choke out he stood there before kneeling down in front of me trying to hug me,I didn't want this I hated human contact

I flinched at his touch which wasn't left unnoticed,he held me softly before I calmed down,breathing in deeply his pine smell

"I'm sorry,it was a joke" he tightened his grip,not mortally but just enough to feel one of my pieces connect with another,slowly de-breaking

Silent sobs filled the room but they weren't mine...