ENEMY LINES

BURIAL

This has been the worst 6 days of my life. I've lost one of the most important people in my life. My rock,my shoulder to cry on,my confident. I'm just so empty I couldn't even shed a tear. Not on the day I found out he was killed,not during the week while I made preparations for his funeral and not when I watched his body going down 6 feet. Watching his coffin go down that grave was just the conformation that he was gone for good.

"Angie who's Romeo?"

"What?"

"He's been blowing up your phone since Wednesday. You must have like 50 000 missed calls from him"

"He's a guy I met at the gym,he's of no importance. Probably wondering why he hasn't seen me at the gym this week."

We just got back from the cemetery to bury my brother and my friend Tasha is with me. The funeral had a high attendance but none were family since we don't have any living relatives. It was mostly his crew/squad or whatever they call each other. His bestfriend also mentioned that his business partners were present too but I don't know any of them,so I couldn't really point them out. Apparently my brother was a good man,which I knew and great businessman. Lorenzo his partner and bestfriend suspects he was murdered because clients of their rivals wanted to work with him. I'm just still clueless about all his affairs. I'm just wondering who would want to take my brother from me.

"Angie?"

"Tasha"

I sigh cause I'm tired and really not up for Tasha's 21 question. I love my best friend but she never stops talking. Right now I'm just mentally and emotionally too exhausted to even breathe.

"Where is Senzo?,I would expect him to be at your brothers funeral as your fiancé"

"He had to work,he said he will meet me at the cemetery but I guess he got held up at work"

"Oh"

"Natasha thank you for being here with me this week. For your support and strength but I really need to get some sleep. I'm really exhausted. I just don't have the strength to go on."

"I'm sorry hun, I'm talking too much again. Go and take a nap. I'll finish cleaning up here."

I head into my room,take off my black dress. I lay down on my bed,covering myself with a red fleece blanket. Immediately drifting off to sleep...

ZZZzzzzzzzzz......

"What's wrong Juicy?"

"It's nothing"

"Come on Angie I'm your brother I know when something's bothering you"

"Am I beautiful Shaun?"

"Ofcos silly you're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen"

"You say that just cause you're my brother"

"Princess I'm saying it because it's true. You know I'd never lie to you. Why do you ask me that though"

"Cause there's this girl at school...who likes making fat jokes about me and calls me ugly infront of other kids,the whole school laughs at me"

My brother takes my hand and stands me in front of the mirror in my bedroom.

"Look in the mirror and tell me what you see"

"Do I have to?"

"Yes,now tell me what do you see"

"I see chubby face....flabby arms.......pork belly....... fat thighs and I'm just too dark"

"Do you know what I see?"

"No...."

"I see a beautiful black Nubian princess,whose skin was bathed in honey and chocolate and kissed by the great gods themselves. I see a princess with a beautiful smile because of her beautiful rosy cheeks. A beautiful young lady with a big heart with a better body than all those high school girls combined. They laugh cause they're jealous because they can never have all this beauty. You know I call you Juicy cause of your love of juice but also cause you've got all this juicy love inside of you and don't ever make this girls believe they're better than you,you're better and always will be. Don't ever doubt yourself"

My brother was always my biggest supporter. I wake up from my dream. Checking the time on my cellphone it's 10 on. I sit up startled by the presence of another person in my bed.