Ghost ✧ Taekook

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!WARNING!
Hoseok's death and past has mentions of drugs, suicide, vomit and just overall bad stuff. If you are not comfortable with reading about this, you have been warned.

They made it back to the motel, no words being spoken, just soft sighs when thinking about the conversation to come. Death isn't something Taehyung really liked, despite his assigned article being all about it. When he first got to Busan he had a feeling it wouldn't be of thought but this is definitely what he wasn't expecting. But he can't exactly complain; he did meet Jungkook.

The blonde unlocked the door and all three ushered inside, Taehyung going to turn the heater on while Hoseok follows Jungkook's lead and sits on the grey couch.

Once all three are settled in the quiet room, Hoseok is prompted to speak when the attention is directed to him.

"Okay," he sighs. "Where do I start? Well, I suppose the beginning will be good,"

"I was around 16 at the time when I moved schools, being the new kid I tried making friends with everyone to try and get myself out of my own world that I'd created at my old school, but that backfired when I actually did make friends. I started talking to this guy who was in my History class, his name was Sukjae, and at first I thought he was pretty cool, he introduced me to his other friends and everything was all good for a few weeks,

"I settled down pretty fast thanks to making friends with Sukjae but... his friends were completely the opposite to him. They bullied people and skipped school, involved themselves with bad crowds and such. I was hesitant when I first met them but they never tried to make me do anything they did, so I relaxed around them. That was a bad move on my part. Sukjae, although he didn't involve himself in the same stuff his friends did, he started showing me that he was equally as bad,

"I tried to look past it, thinking that they never tried to pressure me into anything before, why would they start now, but oh boy, how naive was I. It was at least 2 months after moving there and it was the weekend when I went to hang out with them at our usual place; it was a small grass clearing and they had put an old couch there and some other old stuff for our comfort. I got there and Sukjae was snorting something. I was baffled at first because I would never of thought he'd do anything like that but when I made myself known to them he looked up and, it was like, his old persona completely disappeared. He was just like his friends. I wanted to leave because at this point I was scared but that's the thing, I have always been thing scared little thing who was never really out there and when I first moved I made it my goal to come out of my shell so when I was in this situation I, kinda just... went with it. I walked over to them and they drew up another line of whatever the fuck that was and they made me snort it. I did it and I honestly felt like my head was going to explode.

"And that was just the first of many other times like that to come. I became like them, I started doing all sorts of drugs and skipping school and hanging out with the wrong crowds. I was like this for the last two years of my existence, they fucked me up. If it wasn't for them I'd still be alive," Hoseok continued speaking, getting aggravated with each recollection. Jungkook placed a hand on his knee for comfort and understanding and Hoseok snapped out of his intense thoughts, looking at the younger with a softer expression. Taehyung stood still, his lower back pressed into the edge of his small dining table. Another sigh left Hoseok's mouth and he continued his story.

"I was 18 when I died. I don't know when it got to this point but I was just so fucking depressed and everyone saw it, my parents tried helping me but I was a lost cause. Everyone gave up on me, everyone besides Sukjae,"

"I went to his house one day, he was the only one home. We were just chilling, smoking, talking. He suddenly just started talking about suicide and it made me rethink everything that lead me to this point in my life. In that moment I just wanted to get out. Out of my head, out of that house, out of every shitty thing I was feeling... but I didn't want to die. I wanted to turn my life around, get it back to what it was before all this"

"I didn't even get a chance to say what I was thinking before Sukjae pulled this baggie out of his draw and basically forced me to take whatever was in it. I denied him and even tried to get out of his house but he fucking held me down for gods sake. He put god knows how many pills down my throat and forced me to swallow them all.

"As soon I got out of his grip and out of that house I tried vomiting them all up but only few came out. I somehow made my way back home and died in my bathroom where I, again, tried to vomit them up but I choked and well I guess you get the picture now,"

"I died with everyone thinking I committed suicide. The one thing I never, ever wanted. Sure I had those thoughts but never wanted to act out of them. I never had the chance to change who I was and better myself for my family and for my future. My mum tried so hard to help me get past what I was going through an in the end I was killed by someone in the exact same position as me.

"I just want my mum to know the actual story. I want my mum to know I wanted to change, that I wanted to get out of that awful time. I want her to know I love her and always have, despite my actions," Hoseok finished sigh a sigh and the room fell silent once more. Both Taehyug and Jungkook had tears brimming in their eyes, being clearly affected by the story. They both felt for what Hoseok had to go through.

"I-I'm," Taehyung was too choked up to speak. He looked down, breathing in and out slowly to try and calm himself down. When he felt composed enough he looked back up, at Hoseok and spoke again. "I'll help you; I will help you move on. I'm just so sorry you had to go through that," Taehyung wiped at his eyes and gave a weak smile to the brunet who's story was just shared.

"All I need is my mum to know the actual story. I'll be able to rest peacefully knowing she's not in the dark about my death. She needs to know so that not only I, but her as well, can move on,"

Jungkook along with Taehyung nodded their heads. The blonde was more than willing to help Hoseok move on and Jungkook felt more than compelling to comfort him until he does.

Hoseok will rest peacefully, Taehyung vows on it.

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A/N

WhoOoo pretty interesting.
Also pretty sad, and honestly fuck Sukjae, why the fuck man.

I hope this chapter was good enough! Please tell me what you think about Hoseok's past and how he died!

Please and comment! (:

Till next time,
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