Dreams VS Reality | JACK MAYNARD FANFICTION

CHAPTER 27 : What Am I Doing?

{Important a/n below must read!}

CLAIRE'S POV

I thought about apologizing to Anna about what she saw yesterday night, so I did before we left to go back to London. It was one of those days were I felt like I wasn't myself anymore. I felt so stressed out and depressed about everything.

I kept staring at the car window with my hands wrapped around my legs listening to music until Jack interrupts me to say that we have arrived to his flat. He insisted on carrying my bag upstairs whilst I took the elevator with him and Conor.

After Conor opened the door for us I went straight to the Jack's bathroom to wash my face and after I walked out Jack examined my face. "Hey.. you alright??" he asked putting his hands around my neck. "Yeah I'm okay", "What's wrong?" he asked again.

"I just want to be alone for now.." I said removing his hands then heading to the balcony.

JACK'S POV

"What's wrong with her?"

Is what I asked myself.

I head to the living room where I saw Conor switching on the Xbox to play. "Do you know what's wrong with Claire?? She is acting weird.." I said. "No, what happened?" he asked.

"She doesn't look like her usual self"

"Probably has one of those days were she over thinks about everything", Conor said pausing the game to look at me.

CLAIRE'S POV

"What am I doing here? With Jack.."

"Love come inside? It's pretty cold", Jack said approaching me. "I don't want to", I mumbled. I tried to control my feelings as I feel like pushing everyone and everything away, but he kept insisting on knowing what's wrong. "Please just..." before he could say anything I interrupted him "NO JACK! COULD YOU JUST LET ME HAVE SOME TIME FOR MY SELF? I CAN'T OKAY?"

I said it. I said that I needed time for myself for him, I didn't know what to do as a tear ran down my cheeks. "What do you mean you can't?" he said coming close.

He looked worried about what I meant so before he could even touch me I left the apartment with my phone and hand bag then ran downstairs. I didn't know what to do so I just ran. I ran were no one could ever think of finding me but him. I ran to the park were we first had our date.

JACK'S POV

I tried calling her a few times but she never answered. Conor called Rosie to ask whether she went to the flat but she wasn't.

ME

Claire you're worrying us please come back

Sent 6.12PM

ME

Where did you go? Please just tell me so I could come get you

Sent 6.14PM

ME

Please just come back

Sent 6.20PM

"What did she mean by needing time?"

Please don't let it be what I think it is.

CLAIRE'S POV

There was no one but myself in the park. It was dark and cold and I just needed some time to think. I kept asking myself about what I was doing, do I want Jack to be a part of my life? Does he love me? What is happening to me?

I was losing my mind. Jack does love me and cares about me more than everyone else. He was there for me when I needed him the most.

When I opened my phone I found multiple messages and missed calls from Jack, Rosie and Conor. I looked at what Jack has sent me about coming to get me.

No. I want more time to think and process what was happening. I texted him telling him not to worry and not to come see me at my apartment when I go there and I knew that he would respect my privacy for a couple of days.

A few hours later I decided to go back to my apartment so I took an uber back. As soon as I arrived to the door Rosie tried to comfort me and tell me that Jack loves me and would always be there. I believed her but I didn't want any of that talk in my head right now.

I opened the locked drawer that I had which contained a pack of cigarettes. I used to smoke when I was stressed out until I decided to stop, but now I was back to it again. It was killing me that I'm doing this to myself but I didn't care and grabbed one out and started smoking until I became tired of it and cried myself to sleep.

JACK'S POV

That's it. She is breaking up with me. But why? What did I ever do to deserve this? What have I done to upset her? I only tried to comfort her and be there for her but she obviously doesn't want that anymore.

I decided to let it go and give her time like she said. I love her and always will but you never know what would happen.

AUTHOR'S NOTE!!

Hope you enjoyed! And ahhh 7k! thank you so so much you guys! As I promised you I updated today, if you follow me you would've know why I didn't update yesterday.

It's been so hard to keep updating the story since I first started school 3 weeks ago. Next year I'll be doing my IGCSE's so I'm really stressed out about that. I have a lot going on lately and I don't think I'll update for the next week.. I hope you understand why I made this choice. But I will publish the next chapter Next Monday For Sure!

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