The word i couldn't find

8/22/16

First day of school:

Have you ever just had one of them not good very bad days? Because that's literally the only thing that describes today. I woke up at 3:00 am and I couldn't go back to sleep so I play on my phone until 6:30 then I wake my brother up so we can get ready. I do my makeup my hair my outfit looking hella good and I was so fucking confident. Right up until 5 mins before the bus was coming. I suddenly got light headed and started to have a panic attack but I went to my room and took three of my anxiety control pills. So I start to breath normally. And we made our way to the bus stop. Before I got there people were already staring. I got nervous so I turned my music up, I stood there for three of not less minutes before the really preppy asshole girl said to me

"Hey, you um got a sticker on your leg." She started to laugh. I hurriedly took the sticker off and put it in my back pack. But why did she have to laugh? It really wasn't that funny. So then I get on the bus and I have to walk weird thought the aisles because they're so close together and I have a big butt (sorry not sorry) but then I have to sit next to some weirdo 8th grader who was talking to herself.

We got to the school and as soon as we walked in I was hit with the warmth of body heat. We walked down a small hallway before reaching a giant cafeteria every seat filled. People lined against the wall in the middle of the hall way. And the "hall way" was the size of Musslemans "bigger" gym. (No joke) but what I expected was a bunch of rednecks, but I walk in and there's a group of "thugs" and hoes. You know what I mean. The girl who think that they are all that. The ones in booty shorts that have half their vagina out. I said excuse me politely but I was pushed and pulled and tripped.

Mom had told me and Bradley to go to Mr. Noris office and get our schedules and stuff like that, but we got there and stood for like 2 hours waiting. But when it was finally our turn they told me that my mom would have to come in. But I started to have another panic attack and I couldn't breathe because my mom was 4+ hours away at a court thing for my nephews custody thingy. I walked out of the office to call my mom, I went to the girls bathroom and broke down. I was so nervous and mind fucked. So my aunt had to come get me and my brother but I couldn't stop crying. But yep.