You Are Perfect To Me.

•𝕭𝖆𝖉 𝕷𝖎𝖋𝖊 𝕬𝖑𝖜𝖆𝖞𝖘 𝕭𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖘 𝕭𝖆𝖉 𝕯𝖆𝖞𝖘

"Its okay Jungkook-a, i'm your friend, I have to support you in everything" I smile, but I feel like...Something, is not right. We go home together again, this time we walk in silence. I feel like something is not right, my feelings are not right. And I can feel he's not alright too. I shake my head and try to straighten my feelings then I take a deep breath. "Jungkook-a wanna eat some ice cream?" I smile looking at him "Ice cream? Why? Now?" "No, next year. Of course now. Lets go" I grab his hand and drag him to the nearest store "I'll take the strawberry one, you?" Jungkook takes the chocolate ice cream then we go to the cashier and I pay. We go to the garden near the store. I sit on the swing and start to swing it back and forth while eating the ice cream. "(Y/N)-a" Jungkook calls my name and stays silent. "What is it?" I ask looking at him "Sera was a very special person in my life. She was my life. I think I could have done anything and everything for her but then, she left me like I was nothing. She didnt consider my feelings even a bit. It was hard for me to forget about her, but now she appeared in front of my eyes like its not a big deal. And she expects me to open my heart again for her. She expects me to love her again. Geez, my feelings are all mixed up now" he grabs his hair in frustration and hangs his head I stand up from my seat, I Stand in front of him and reach out my hand and lay it on his head stroking his hair slowly "it's gonna be okay. Take your time to set your feelings Jungkook-a. I don't know what to say so this all that I can say I'm sorry. But, the only advice I can give you is that, dont lie to your self, don't lie to your own feelings. If you start to love her then, give her a second chance. She might change." I exhale and take my hand off his head. My heart hurts in a certain way. It really does. Why is it? "But I already told her that I dont love her anymore, and my words probably hurt her. And I also told her that I already care about someone else" he looks up at me with his sad eyes, "Tell her the truth, apologize, I know she'll understand. Tell her that you got your feelings mixed up because of her sudden appearance." I forced a smile, again "Thank you" Jungkook said in a low voice and gives me a sad smile "Yeah"
I forced a smile, again."Jungkook-a~!!" Someone called his name, from the voice, its a girl. "You're here? Oh, you're with (y/n)-sshi, I must be interrupting" "No no no you're not, I'll go, you two take your time. Jungkook-a I'll go" I told her and give them a forced smile, then left. I felt tears fall down my cheeks as I walk away, I wipe it quickly "Why is it? Whats with this tears? Haha I must be crazy" I laugh sadly as my heart breaks into pieces. I don't like this feeling. What is it? And why?
4 days later
I didn't talk to Jungkook since that day, why? I don't know why, I think I avoided him. When he wanted to talk to me, I will immediately look away and go. I didn't go to the rooftop again but instead I go to the storage room. I'm inside the storage room listening to my music with my head on the table, I start to sing 'Sorry' by Juniel
"Lately, you said that you're leaving me maybe, it's really over I'll understand, I'll understand Even if my heart aches My love, if your heart desires Lately, I've just been crying try denying it but l guess I'm struggling Don't worry, don't worry With words I don't even mean My love, I'm deceiving myself" "Aahh, what is this feeling. It doesn't feel alright. I hate it. Why does this week, feel so wrong?" I scratch my hair and lay my back on the chair my face facing up. "It does feel wrong" I see Jungkook's face, I was startled and got up from my chair immediately "Why are you here! You scared me!" I shouted "I'm the one who should be asking that!" He shouted back and looked down "Sorry" "What sorry? Just explain to me what happen to you" he sits down in front of me, I feel like I'm being interrogated "Nothing, I'm just, not feeling good. Maybe.... I'm sick, that's why, I won't get close to you I'm afraid that you will catch my sickness." I keep looking down "I'm sorry Jungkook-a" I feel a hand on my head I look up a bit and Jungkook's face is so close,"W-what?" I ask, he gets closer and suddenly he hugs me tight "Thank you" I widened my eyes hearing what he said, I feel my heartbeat rising "Why are you thanking me?" This feels so wrong, "Thanks to you, now I'm with Sera again" hearing his words, my heart really breaks into pieces, it really hurts. So much, so fucking much, I feel tears on my eyes, but I hold it back, I release his hug and look down "Really? Good for you then, see what did I tell you. She'll understand." I forced a laugh "I think, I need to go to the toilet, its an emergency hehe." I ran to the toilet as fast as I can, I get in one of the stall, and just sit there blank. I keep sitting there I don't know what to do and I realize that school is over. I close my eyes and still feel tears. I wipe it and exhale. Thank god tomorrow is Saturday. I don't have to see him, And why is that? I feel hurt when he told me about Sera's place in his life, my heart even broke after I heard that he got back with Sera. Why? Do I like him? No, I shouldn't like him, I can't. He's my friend. My only friend. I cannot ruin this relationship just because of my simple...feelings towards him. After sorting out my feelings I manage to get out from one of the stall when I get out, I see the girls that always bullied me "Fuck me" I think to myself. They start talking shit about me pushing me all around, grabbing my hair and pulling until some of it came out, scratching my face, punching me, taking off my clothes, ripping it, spraying me with water and push me until I fall on the ground. "THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU KEEP CLINGING ON JUNGKOOK! JUNGKOOK IS OURS!" They yelled and kicked me, "He's someone else's now, I doubt you guys can beat his new girlfriend when you guys act like this, like an animal" I laugh while looking at them "WHAT? ANIMAL!! YOU SHOULD SEE YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR! YOU'RE A BEAST!" One of the girls yelled at me and punched my face hard and kicks my stomach "Eat that bitch" they left. I just lay there closing my eyes, I couldn't move, my whole body hurts, I want to cry, but I cant, all that I can do is just laugh and try so hard to stand up, when I make it I walk to the classroom slowly but sure. I hold the door to help me stand on my feet. The class is empty, no one is there. I walk to my table to take my bag, but I see a paper on the top of my desk, "To (y/n). From Jungkook" I laugh a bit what is this? I open it. "(Y/n) sorry, I think you need to go home by yourself today, I have to accompany Sera to go somewhere, I cant let her go alone since she's my girl now. I will accompany you next time Sorry! Take care and be careful on your way back. love you friend." once again my heart broke "Friend?" I laugh a bit again. "Yes, I'm just a friend." I put the paper inside my bag and go. "Ah" I feel sore all over my body. On my way back, the day is getting darker, the road is not like always, its almost pitch black "What happened to the light?" I fasten my speed, but someone got in my way "Hey there..cutie..I see you're here all alone" a bunch of guys surrounded me "Excuse me, I have to go" I hold my bag's strap hard and start to walk past them, but instead one of them grabs my hand "You have to pay if you want to pass little girl" he traps me between his arms, he leans his face closer to me but I dodge "What are you doing!" He holds my face and lay his lips on mine roughly. I shake my head "God please help me" I feel tears roll down my cheeks.