Everything Has Changed

Part 9

Blake's Pov

We were waiting. Everything seemed to be in slow motion.

Every nurse and doctor seemed to be going in slow motion.

Fear for Kittrina had already invaded my body. I felt more fear that I had ever felt in my life.

Sure I was afraid of going into the army but losing her meant so much more to me than my own life.

If I could I would have switched places with her in a second.

I felt like dying when I saw her so broken. The way she was so dead to the fact that she couldn't or didn't want to live any longer.

When I was holding her waiting for the paramedics was so scary. The amount of blood I was seeing in different areas made me want to cry.

"Kelly when are they going to be done? I need to see her!" I said as I looked over at her as we sat in the waiting room.

She didn't say anything. He eyes where glued to the wall upfront of us as she sat still.

She does this when she is so lost in thought that the world around her just disappeared.

I used to be like that but I leaned how to live in both worlds. My minds world and the physical world.

I sighed as I sank into my seat. She won't be talking anytime soon.

I glanced around to see many other people pacing, sobbing, and staring at walls like Kelly. They are all waiting for someone just like I was waiting for Kitty. I was waiting for the girl I love.

Before the ambulance got there earlier her sobs had quited. For a few minutes all she did was squeeze me to her but soon her grip slipped and she sank away from my neck. Her head would have jerked to the floor if I hadn't had my arm wrapped around her shoulders.

I replayed the image of her before the ambulance got there. How her eyes had shut and her breathing was slow.

Everything about her seemed so different from before I left. Her cheeks were sunken in slightly more than before. The skin around her eyes wasn't healthy looking definitely with the bruises but I could tell that she hasn't been sleeping well. She was skinnier too.

I shook my head not wanting to think of how skinny she had become. How I could wrap both my hands around her waist and have my thumbs overlap.

"Kelly, I'm going to talk to the nurse's" I said even though she wasn't listening.

I pushed my body up from the chair.

"excuse me?" I asked one of the nurses at the desk in the waiting room.

"yes sir?" she said with a kind smile.

"I was wondering when I will be able to see Kittrina?"