Everything Has Changed

Present: Part 5

Everything hurt. It was hard for me to open my eyes. They felt like they where sewed closed. I stretched my muscles only to grown in pain. Oh god. Why dose everything hurt?

Oh my god.

The abandoned house. I was at the abandon house with James.

NO. I- I passed out. Oh god. What did he do to me? 

My eyes snapped open. Well as wide as they could get. I'm betting I have two black eyes, a bruised jaw, and too many hits to the head. My skull is pounding like it has its own heart beat.

I lifted my hand to feel around. my shirt was no longer on my body as I felt the skin of my tummy. Fear engulfed my body as I thought of the worse thing happening. He didn't. I hope he didn't anyways.

Oh please god. I pleaded in my mind as I reached for my thigh. I sucked in a breath as my finders came in contact with... No. No I cant believe him.

No.

I could feel the tears already sliding down. How could he do this to me?

The realization of not being me anymore made me cry harder.  I've been violated inside and out. Everything burned. Starting with my toes, leading to my insides, and finishing with my mind. I felt scummy and like I was nothing now. I felt like I was a stranger in my body. Like this was no longer my body but his and I need to take it back. He used and abused me. I felt like everything was gone and I was broken. 

I am no longer me. It killed me inside to know how much had changed in the ppast year. I hated this life. I hate James. I hate him for hurting me over and over again. I hate him for taking something that wasn't his. I hate that he broke me and I hate that all I want to do is burn the skin he has ever touched.

I completely pushed all the pain aside as I rolled onto my side bringing my legs up to my chest as I cried. I let out heart wrenching sobs, not caring how loud I was.

He took the only thing I cherished most. He just took it without asking and not disserving it. I will never forgive him for this. I cant ever go near him again.

This is it I'm not staying here in this town with him. Its gone too far. I have to leave. Dad isn't getting home soon enough for me to stay.

I had to go. I had to get away from him and everything that reminded me of this moment.

"There is a fire, starting in my heart" I heard my phone ring. I didn't bother to answer it as I continued to cry.

Nothing mattered right now. Nobody mattered.

My body ached and my body was in flames as I shook from my sobs.

There was so much pain inside and out.

Everything was burning and screaming in pain. I wanted nothing more than to die right now, but that isn't the answer.

Getting away is the only thing I can do. I wont let this ever happen again. It cant. I wont be able to survive if he ever touches me again.

"There is a fire, stating in my heart" my phone began to ring again. I grunted as I opened my eyes and looked around. Where the hell is the thing anyways.

I glanced on the floor next to the bed I was on to see it lighting up. I reached down wincing in pain. I gasped as I saw my arm. It was covered in bruises of all different shades. As the phone continued to ring. I quickly grabbed the phone and clicked answer. I brought the phone up to my ear and flopped back onto the bed in pain. I hissed as pain flared through my moving joints.

"What?"

"Oh thank god! Kittrina where the hell are you? Your mom has called two times asking if you got to my place alright. I told her that you where out getting ice cream with James to bring back for our slumber party." Kelly screamed through the phone.

"Kelly" I sobbed as I clutched a pillow to my chest. "He ruined me." I screamed as I thought about what he did to me.

"No..." She whispered.

"Kelly my whole body hurts. Its nothing like before. It was so much worse. I barely can see the wall in front of me. My scull is pounding and Im so scared." I sobbed. I didn't know how bad I was injured but I knew it was bad as I barely could move and everything screamed.

"Okay where are you?" She asked

"At the abandon house that we promised to never to go to. I'm in some bed room and I don't know where James is. I blacked out when we got here and I woke up in some bedroom."
 I cant believe I was the one going through this. I should be the one at home or at Kelly's happy and have no worries other than what colleges I'm goanna attend. Instead I'm worrying about weather or not I'm goanna make it out alive every day, weather I have enough make up on to hide the bruises, and if anyone's going to find out about James.

"Oh my god... Ok I'm on my way" She stated. I nodded as all the energy seemed to drain from my body. I let the phone drop from my ear and onto the ground. Everything seemed to be fading and blurring together. "Kitty! Kitt!" Kelly screamed through the phone.

Slowly her voice disappeared as my mind went blank and everything went black.