Ella used to always be in the shadows shy, and lets people walk over her ,and treat her badly, but an incident happened which changed her , leaving a scar on her soul. She hides who she is behind a badass, bad girl act, and hides her emotion...
"Hey " said a familiar voice from the distance I looked up to see someone I thought I'd never see again .
"Elena what ? How ??" I asked
"It's all your fault " she said in a cruel voice
"What do you mean ?"
"It should have been you " was her reply
"No you wouldn't say that your not the real Elena she would never say that " I said with utter disbelief .
"Well it is " said another voice I looked up only to freeze in place when I saw who it was. "Dad !? No it can't be not you too " I cried
"It should have been you " the both shouted.
"No , no , no " i cry while shaking my head
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"NOOO" i wake up startled tears running down my face my whole body is shaking and full of sweat .
I flicked my hair out of my face and tried to dry my tears but they were endless , so i just didn't bother instead i slowly made my way to me ensuite . Once i was in i quickly opened the shower and turned the tap to warm . I then stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower and let the warm water mix with my tears .
I just could not get over how helpless i feel truth be told if i could time travel back to the day of the accident and save them i would but its impossible . If this was a few months back i would have wished to be dead but lately i want to live i have a reason to live .
Ryder oh god Ryder its been about two weeks from our date and things have been outstanding . He's the sweetest and cheesiest boyfriend ever but i love it i don't know if i love him yet but i most defiantly like him a lot . We've been on about three dates till now even if they were small or maybe not considered dates i still loved every minute of them . They mainly consist of walks in the park and going for ice cream afterwards or just simply going to a dinner after school for lunch.
These past few weeks have been the best and the happiest I've ever been in a long time . To the point where I'm starting to think I've been going soft or dare i say turning into the old Ella but I'm happy and thats all that matters right now.
After i finished showering i got out of my ensuite with a towel around my body i quickly made my way towards my cupboard and took out some undergarments and a pair of spandex shorts that reach just under my ass and a loose white tank top.
I checked the time to see its just three in the morning ad all thanks to that nightmare i can't and don't want to go back to bed in fear of having another nightmare.
So i simply laid down on my bed in the dark staring at nothing to be exact. It made my brain go back to thinking of the night mare i had which caused me to shed a few tears till i came to the conclusion that i don't want to just stay here crying because lets face it, it won't bring them back.
