My Secret Love

I Deserve It

Chapter 18
(1 week later)
Its been 1 week since my accident and since then I've been staying at Finns till Quinn finds a new place to stay . I know I was going to go back to tell her I was sorry but when I saw her I just got so angry and upset. All I wanted to be alone. I guess this is what I get though, my karma for cheating . Anyway I'm staying in Finns guest room till I figure out what to do. I was getting ready for school when Finn came in,

"Are you dressed?" He asked with his eyes shut.

"Yes you can open your eyes." I said smirking.

He opened them up,

"So have you talked to Quinn?" He asked me .

"No and I don't plan too. " I said.

"Rachel she's so upset please talk to her." He said.

"No , I deserved it . I hurt you Finn and then I got cheated on by the same person who cheated on you with me. It's karma." I said.

"Rachel, you do realize that you stepped aside for me when I told you I loved Quinn." He said.

"I know." I said.

"Good then you also know that Quinn and I were awful together. We fought all the time and we almost hated each others guts half the time." He said.

"I know but Finn , I don't think I can even look at her the way I used too. I mean she had sex with Santana and I was outside her door pouring my heart out to no one." I told him.

"Rachel, relationships aren't always going to be easy. You think it was easy on me when I found out my best friend and girlfriend were in love? No, but you know what it's okayw because you and Quinn aren't me and Quinn.  You make her happy and she makes you happy. Don't let this ruin everything. You two made a lot of sacrifices for eachother to break up and just give up seems pointless. " He told me.

"I don't know if I can forgive her. " I said.

"Sometimes you just gotta forgive yourself first and maybe then you can forgive her." He said and gave me a hug.