Your my good luck

Chapter10- Hope and loss

* Alex's POV *

She has been asleep in a coma for 2 months. I have gone crazy literally, I have been hallucinating about her and dreaming. I've been so depressed my wolf isn't even talking to me all he does is cry now. I think we both know she is gone. The doctor said in 2 months and one day he would unplug her. Me, I didn't agree but I knew she wanted to be in peace. I don't sleep either I can't. The doctor said and I quote ' She won't make it and if she does she is the luckiest wolf to live and it would be a miracle. Oh and also She lost so much blood and that if there was no slit throat that she would be still alive and that I can't put my venom in her'. Cause if I do put my venom in her she would die cause she is to weak to take the pain. I was by her bed praying she would wake up.

"please wake up I can't live without you and I won't." I pleaded but was interrupted by Austin my beta busting through the door.

"I am so sorry for interrupting but I want you to have this, I found it in her pockets I forgot to tell you ." I nodded. Austin won't even be in the hospital. He tired to kill himself twice but I knocked some sense into him. Also I said that she could still be alive and that we have to fight for her like she is with us.

I notice the two papers." What are the two papers for?" I asked

"Oh there's two." He said and left.

I un-crumbled the paper and read the first one.

Note1:
Hey I just wanted to know I am so happy that you never gave up on me. Just know that I won't ever give up on you. You won't ever lose me.

Note 2:
I hate everything. I feel like I just got stabbed in my heart. I know I didn't know him long but I was falling for him and so was my trust. I know we didn't care, I just knew it. No one would miss me anyway, so I'm going away. It's not like people would care anyway they all have mates and there happy. I bet everyone would forget about me cause mates they make you so happy they make you forget about all the worries and stress. If anything happens to me just tell Austin I love him and well Alex I'm so sorry I wasn't good enough wait what am I saying I haven't even known you long but it hurts like hell to know you were with someone else.

I was shocked this is what she felt like when she thought I did that but why would I. I'm still a virgin so I am glad I killed that son of a bitch. I soon fell asleep knowing tomorrow morning she would be gone and dead.

I woke up to a doctor tapping me on my shoulder. I open my eyes slightly and saw them. I then suddenly was awake.

I nodded at the pack doctor and my warriors and Austin. The look in his eyes told me if she didn't wake up now we would be able to live.

"Take Austin to a cell where he can't hurt himself on anything." The Warriors nodded and half left. I heard Austin screaming saying 'stop' and 'just kill me already'

"I'm so sorry that you going to be losing your mate."

And with those words, I snapped. In one swift move I took her arm and bit into it. I felt my Canines grown the biggest they have been and put all this venom in it trying to bring her back. She was screaming while my canines were in but I was being hold back and slammed into the wall. I look at her at her limp body and the back at her heart monitor it was in a straight line.

"I am so sorry I couldn't control it." I sobbing but it was a scream and yell mix.

I fell on my knees clutching my chest that's he unplugged it and was about to say something but I ran out of the room.

I needed I run maybe this was another hallucination.