my name is dan howell, and i am slowly losing myself.
i walk through the hallways in constant fear that somebody will see me and say something, anything.
i try to hide in the shadows from everyone, it really helps me to stay a bit more calm and focused. i hate who i am, i'm always alone, but that's my own fault.
you can't make friends in fear that they will just walk away or backstab you in the long run.
the only place i am seen with a few people is in the classroom, but i try to keep myself in the back of the class so nobody can pay attention or focus on me, as i fear everyone and i would probably just panic on the spot.
the teachers don't make me try to talk anyone, what's the point when i just stutter or give them a scared expression and start getting nervous to the point of panicking also.
deep down, the teachers don't care, people don't care, but i wish they did.
it's sad just seeing me always lost and frightened, but what is there to be scared of?
i hate it.
but.. phil lester is a whole other story.
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edit: why did i make another fanfiction oml
why am i making this when i already have one
this is pretty awful and shitty written, but oh well it's 2:32am and i can't help it
ps check out my other fanfiction called kik!! thank you☀️
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fear // phan
Fanfictionanother day of fear. another day of losing myself. another day of trying to find who i am. i most likely fear you more than you fear me. - trigger warning; depression, suicidal thoughts, a ton of negativity towards little daniel. {lower-case intend...
