Undecided

   "Whatdd you mean you can't make it." I say into the phone almost on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry hunny but wo-"

"But what!" I spit out angirly "You promised.  Or did you forget that too. I should have knew it was too good to be true." I hung up the phone not giving him a chance to say another word.

                 4 years later

   Do you ever have those days where it feels like your life pauses or your in a trance. And for that moment you hate yourself you become sad. You think that yeah theres always sonebody woser off than you but for this one moment your the one thats woser off.

   I beleived the first boy who said he loved me because he showed me soo much attention.

The second boy because he, well he really was just a rebound to make my first mad.

Now my third my ex. He... He was  sweet he was kind he was smart he was goofy.He was inlove with with me for me.

He also beat me. He caused our miscarriage. He broke me down. He scared me. He said he loved me to death.

But most importantly he apologized.

                     Present Day

   "Who did this Kendal." My bestfriend scolded me.

I was leaning against the fridge with some peas wraped in a ragedy towel holding it against my swollen eye.

   "Let me look at it." he said in a calmer voice.

I slowly moved the peas off my eye. He walked closer and examined it lifting my chin to get a better look.

  "Are you going to tell me what happend or."

  "They followed me home." I lied.

"They."

I shook my head and he removed his hands so I picked the peas back up.

"Who."

"Don't worry about it." I said wiping a tear off my cheek.

"We gone keep talking about this or."

" Its already handle."

" Then tell me who did it." he demaned.

We where both stubborn but I got myself into this situation so I would get myself out.

  "Whatever Kendal. I'm getting real tired of this so when tired of being somebodies punching bag tell -"

"Its-" I hesitated. I've been wanting to tell Xavier the truth ever since Jay put his hands on me the first time. Xavier can handle himself but Jay crazy. Been acting even crazier since I broke things off two weeks ago.

"Its just some jealous girls from school."

He looked at me not believing it but shook his head.

"Can I sleep over tonight?" I asked already knowing the answer.

Xavier followed me up the stairs and ploped on my bed as I grabbed a couple outfits to wear and toiletries.

"Im ready." I said as my phone began to buzz.

I ended the call an turned off my room light.

Xavier house was a couple of blocks away from mine. It was getting cold and I only had on a sweater.

I rubbed my arms trying to give them a little warmth when Xavier placed his Letterman jacket around me.

"Xavier. I dont want you to be cold because of me."