Undecided

What Now

Over the summer me and X became distant. I was with Jay everyday day night. I even mo.ved in with him.But then Jay became controling. Telling me where and where not I could go. Who I could and couldnt see. And then the hitting started. Right before school started back we had a huge fight and I ended up in the hospital I was five and a half months pregnant. I was without oxygen too long and just like that the baby died.

  I acted like everything was fine. Hid my emotions. I went mute for awhile. Its still hard too think about so.....

With Xavier still not talking to me I was a bowl of nerves all day. Every little thing had me jumping or panicking.

  There was no way I was getting out of seeing Jay. I was scared of what he might do or wouldn't do. The more I thought about it the more I got paranoid.

   I walked into the class room before anyone else had come in.

   The third period bell rang and the class started to fill.

  Me and Xavier both had the same 3rd and 4th periods on Adays.

He walked in still giving me the cold shoulder but sat in the desk next to me.

  I didn't do anything wrong but I knew what I said was wrong if that makes sense.

I sat hands crossed, face expressionless and heart racing.

My phone vibrated twice in my pocket.

353-876-9043 12:15 :  Im here

353-876-904312:16 :  Come out

Me 12:20: I cant

353-876-9043 12:21 I'm comming in

I looked over at Xavier but he didn't seem to notice. Then my phone rang loudly and just about everybody in the classroom turned around including him.

I quickly pushed the end button twice and put my phone in the bottom of my bookbag.

"Thankyou Ms.Jefferson you have not only interrupted the whole class but earned yourself a demerit."

  A couple students snickered.

           3 minutes later

Our class phone rang causing a small diversion.

"Kendal." she longated the L in my name. "You have a early dismisal. Come to the front and get your honework."

I gathered my book bag and carefully walked down the aisle to the front desk.

When I got to the front I turned around and felt X staring at me. I knew that he knew something was up. My dad never picked me up early and no one else ever came up to the school.

Mrs.Greghs gave me a english assignment and a vocab list.

"It'll be due monday no exceptions Ms.Jefferson." she said as I walked out of class.

The halls where empty completely empty so when I heard a familar voive call from behind me I turned around.

My ex aka Rebound bka Quan.

"I thought it was you." He said jogging up to me. "Where you goiingg."

"Office."

"You in trouble or something?"

I began to shake my head but my cellphone rang disrupting me.

"I gotta go."I said pushing one of my fallen curls behind my ear.

  "I can't  walk with you or sum!"

   Before I could answer Quan wrapped his arm around my neck and began to walk. The familar scent of his cologne filled my nose reminding me of the time we dated.

  He was literally just a rebound. Looking back on it I stupid for dating him. He was my first ex homeboy. But after my first ex broke my heart all I seen was red. Me and Quan never did anything beside kiss and touch. I was still too fragile I told him.

When my first ex Raymound found out he called me every name in the book. Still to this day neither one of us has apologized.

" So how you been I haven't really seen you around."

" Keeping to myself." we turned the corner to the office.

Jay was leaning against the office glass window. Black hoodie dark jeans Black tennis shoes. He looked up and seen us standing there.

I broke away from Quan quickly.

"I gotta-"

"Yeah I geuss I'll see you around."

Jay face hardens.

I hear footsteps and knew that Jay had started walking. I follow behind him like a puppy dog.

He walked over to a unfamilar black car and opend the passenger door.(2005 Saturn Ion 2door)

I looked at him but his face was still hard my body quivered. I had no other choice but to get in.

I took off my bookbag and sat it on the floor then sat down. My skirt had rose up and apart of my butt was on the seat.

I wiggled and pulled down the skirt. For a christian school the skirts where short.

Jay got in closed his door and just sat there.

My phone vibrated 3 times. I unzipped my bookbag and rumaged to bottom until I found my vibrating phone.

"Who is it? Cuz it seem like you inna a rush to answer them." Jay said in a hard tone.

"Nobody."

I didn't even get to open my text message.

Xavier 12:32 : Who came and got you?

Xavier 12:33 : Kendal

353-890-2765 12:32 : Who the fck is that nigga Kendal? ?

Jay snatched the phone out of Kendals grasp and read the messages hisself.

"Jay give me back my phone."

" Who number is eight nine ohh?"

"I dont know."

Kendal rose outta her seat and tried to grab the phone back.

"Who the fuck is it Kendal I'm not going to ask you again!!" Jay yelled at me.

  "Jay I really dont know."

Jay started the car still holding my phone tightly.

He drops the phone in between his legs knowing I won't grab it and pushes the sound button on the radio.

The base causes the whole car to shake.

'Dem bitches Love Sosa' Kept repeating throughout the stupid song.

I wasn't going to end it like this but I got bored. What should happen next.I need sone thriller.

Also who should Jay be and I need a good cover pic of Drake where can I find one.

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