A Day At A Time - EreRi

Chapter Three - Alone

The next day Eren was so excited but nervous at the same time; he was going to ask out his crush and he knew Levi would be there to support him! He knew Levi would be there because he was always there to support him for everything, whether it was a test, him beating up someone, or him asking someone out. So as he walked into school he immediately began looking for Levi to talk to him, and when he was nowhere to be found he assumed that he wasn't there yet. To distract himself Eren was talking to his friends and enjoying small talk when he realized it was time to go to class. He hadn't seen Levi yet so he decided to text him, 'Hey Levi, where are you?' He texts him, slowly beginning to grow worried that Levi wouldn't show up.

Levi was laid in bed asleep - having been up all night he had finally fallen asleep after Erwin bothered him about his stomach, and now he was peacefully at rest; not dead, though. His night wasn't too well; filled with anxiety and self loathing.

He was still upset about the entire Eren situation even though he could've done something to possibly prevent it, but there's no guarantee that it would've actually served that purpose. He could've forewarned him that he was demisexual, which would hint that he liked someone and if Eren was smart enough he could figure out that he was the only one Levi was close to. But Levi highly doubted that could've done anything to steer his mind away from the Horseface at school. His sleep wasn't that deep and that was proven when his phone went off and he slowly woke up, gazing down at the phone he saw Eren's name and sighed before turning onto his other side and going back to sleep, but as the thought of Eren crept it's way back into his mind he couldn't sleep anymore and the sickness was back. Laying there, tears filled his eyes and he held his stomach, the self loathing thoughts filling his head while he cried. It was stupid, he thought, crying because Eren had chosen someone over him and he wanted it to be him he was so excited to ask out. He wanted to be good enough for Eren and earn his love; have him holding him and telling him how much he loved him. But who was Levi kidding? Levi had known all his life that there was no such thing as love; nobody could love you forever and continue on with the same person and same thing for their entire life. Levi laid there with these thoughts swarming his head, unable to think and growing irrational he decided to do something about - give in to his urges and give himself relief.

Eren was sitting in class still waiting on a response from Levi, sighing since he was getting lonely and even a little irritated since he assumed Levi was ignoring him; which technically he was but Eren didn't know that. But it made him upset because Levi had been there for him for everything; to support him, to make him feel better, to give him a confidence boost. But now Eren was alone and he didn't know what to do; he wanted to ask Jean out during lunch and that was in a few hours. At least it gave him a few hours to prepare - but it also gave time in case Levi really would show up. Eren could only hope for the best since he didn't ask people out too often and he could really use a wingman - even if Levi couldn't talk he could nudge Eren if he stuttered or even be blunt and write it down, showing it to Jean. Well Eren could easily do that himself, but he'd rather not because that may be weird or make him seem pathetic. Eren would just have to tough it out and do this himself, because so far it seemed that Levi wasn't showing up. Sure it had only been like thirty minutes since school started, but Levi was never late unless he had an appointment, but he would've told Eren if he had one; probably anyways.

By lunch Levi still hadn't shown up or responded to his texts so Eren was pretty sure that Levi was not going to be showing up. So texting Levi one last time, 'I guess imma do this myself so wish me luck ;-;' is all he said, then putting his phone into his pocket and walking over to Jean's table nervously, although reassurance settled in him a bit knowing that even if Jean rejected him he could complain to Levi and not get yelled at. As he approached the table everyone looked over to him and fell silent, Jean looking to the brunette and furrowing his brows. "What is it, Jaeger?" He asks, tilting his head at him curiously that also had a look of annoyance. Eren noting this smiled a bit awkwardly and shrugged, "I was wondering if you wanted to uh..." He began stuttering on his words nervously since fear of rejection is a thing. He furrowed his brows and began to stand, "Stop mumbling and speak up, what is it?" He says, repeating himself as he took a step closer to Eren in attempt to intimidate him. It actually worked as Eren cowered slightly and looked up at Jean, looking up at him and studying his face before meeting those hazel eyes and in that split moment he made a decision.