A Day At A Time - EreRi

Chapter 6 - That's Unusual

Levi couldn't help the tears that began to stream down his face -- it hurt in more ways than one and he had reached his breaking point. Eren never listened to him or his advice, his opinions and thoughts. Eren was independent and Levi shouldn't be complaining about that, but he couldn't help but get upset in the fact that at times he didn't even take his existence into consideration; yet he got upset when Levi disappeared for a week and he couldn't ramble on about the shitty horseface. He couldn't stand this and anything to do with it, from the mere thought of it to the fact that it was actually happening. Levi was being selfish in this situation -- oh so selfish, but he couldn't help but feel jealous and envious at the reality of Eren being with someone else. It wouldn't matter if Levi had an identical twin and Eren dated them, or if it was someone that he didn't give two shits about, it hurt him and it just forced reality onto him. It was bound to happen eventually and Levi knew that, but it was much harsher than he thought it would be. He felt like crap and he couldn't handle it anymore, he'd finally snapped and it just so happened to be in front of Eren; the person who partially caused it.

Eren saw the tears and was so confused as to why he was crying; Levi was usually so emotionless or some form of angry, never upset to the point of salty liquid dispersing from his tear ducts. Did he do this? Was it his doing that made Levi so upset to the point of crying? What could he possibly have done to make him so sad? He had just questioned his time with Jean...was it Jean? Did Jean say something to Levi that made him upset? As much as he had grown to like Jean, Levi came first. Levi was the most important being to him aside from his mother since she was all he had left in his bloodline..at least that he knew of. Back to the point, he wasn't sure what had made Levi so upset and he really wanted to know so that he could do everything he could to make or least help him feel better. So of course the only way to figure it out was ask Levi and if he had to he'd pry it out of him, and as much as he didn't like making Levi uncomfortable since it kept him from speaking sometimes if he's pushed to his limit he'll open his mouth. As thought Levi remained silent with his first question, staring down at the ground as the tears came and came, Levi not even bothering to cover them up since it'd just draw more attention himself and the fact that he, Levi Ackerman, was actually crying. Eren watched him for a few moments before leading him into the house once they arrived and then deciding to press further into him. "Levi what's wrong?" He asks while closing the front door, "You can't deny that nothing's wrong at this point, you've already proved that something's wrong." He adds on as he turns towards him, Levi still staring at the ground as he pulled on his shoes, having to ignore him to keep himself from completely breaking down. He had already slipped a little bit, and now he was barely hanging on to whatever self control he had left. Ignore him, ignore him, ignore him, ignore him, don't listen to him you'll only cry more, it's his fault you're crying in the first place, he should already know you shouldn't have to tell him. Levi kept repeating all these things to him, trying to keep it together. He was so close, he could feel himself beginning to double breathe. Holding his breath he tried to stop it but it progressively got worse. "Did Jean say something to you, Levi?" He heard Eren ask, that immediately pushing him over because no, Jean didn't say anything. This technically isn't Jean's fault at all since he couldn't have possibly known that Levi liked Eren. He coudn't have known that Levi wouldn't like them being together; well he could kinda assume on that one since him and Eren were glued to each other's sides..most of the time anyways. Jean, Jean, Jean, John, John, John, Horse-fucking--face, that's all he's been hearing lately. It's all about Jean, Eren and Jean to be specific. He was tired of it and it killed -- no, it stabbed him and let him suffer to constantly hear about him and all the cute, fun, exciting stuff they did together. He was tired of hearing about him and he seriously wanted to yell, but of course his voice was nowhere strong enough to do that, especially after what happened...what happened. Now that was brought back up, the fact that Levi could disappear and Eren was off in his own little world with the shitface. His thoughts were all over the place and his mind was racing, he didn't know what to think or what to focus on. He gave up, tears began pouring from his eyes and he almost sobbed out, but he was able to hold himself back at least that much. Reaching up he wiped his eyes off despite the continuous stream of tears, then placing a hand over his mouth in attempt to hold back any noises that might try to escape. He was so embarrassed that he was crying, and in front of Eren. This hasn't happened in forever and he was pretty sure it was more embarrassing than the last time. Crying over something as small as a fucking relationship that he wasn't even involved in, being so selfish to draw attention to himself about this whole fucking thing. But of course this only made Eren more worried and curious; or more so confused, about the entire situation.