A Day At A Time - EreRi

Chapter Four - Why Do This To Me?

It was the weekend now, Levi was sitting on Eren's bed while listening to Eren gossip about how his date with Horseshit had gone. With each word that passed Levi fell deeper and deeper, realizing how easily he could be replaced. Eren had spent Friday at the movies with Jean, where they apparently ended up making out. Meanwhile Levi had never been kissed, or even dated much people; his excuse was that he was ace but he felt so gay for Eren it wasn't even funny. He knew Eren was bisexual, and that meant even more competition for him. He felt he should just give up, and sure he said that a few days ago but he had gained the strength to try again, and now it had just left him. He realized how much Eren liked Jean, how much they seemed to click even though they hated each other just a few months ago. Levi told himself to just leave it be, let it go and not think about it anymore; but he couldn't help it. They were best friends, they were supposed to be able to tell each other anything but Levi had kept so much to himself that it wasn't even remotely funny anymore.

Eren had noticed how distant Levi was becoming that day as he was telling him all about how the date had went, how he had so much fun with Jean and how they had ended up making out. How Eren was finally pushing himself from being so attached to Levi and he was becoming independent; it sounded really bad when in reality it was kind of good since Eren was so attached to him and for the longest time stuck on the idea of dating Levi and that they'd be together. But now he was starting to date other people and become his own person and that made him happy; he didn't have to rely on Levi anymore and he could do things himself. He noted how Levi was quieter than usual -- which sounded weird for a mute person, but it was true. Levi was just looking at him or looking down at his lap as he messed with his sleeve, and it seemed Levi didn't like this story. That something was bothering him, and as this idea clicked in Eren's head he immediately turned it towards Levi as he paused. "Hey, are you okay? You seem really distant." He says softly while watching him closely for his reaction.

Levi jumped slightly as he looked up from his lap, looking up to Eren as he simply nodded his head. He was too uncomfortable to talk at the moment but luckily he was good at hiding that from Eren. Sure they may be best friends, but Levi knew how to hide things from Eren because of that. It really was terrible since you shouldn't hide things from your best friend, but for Levi he thought it would be easier for the both of them. He wouldn't have to be so exposed to Eren and Eren wouldn't be bothered by all of Levi's constant problems and how fucked up his life was. His life would actually probably be easier because he'd have an outlet that might be able to help him since he had seen so many therapists since his mother died and very little of them had worked -- a few had given him advice he actually listened to and stuck with, but so far he hadn't been helped long-term. Levi had problems, Eren had problems. Levi knew Eren's problems and couldn't help while Eren didn't know Levi's problems but would be able to help, well at least be an outlet for him. It was all a big mess for them, except for the fact that Eren was only vaguely aware that Levi was having major problems in his life and with himself.

"I'm fine." Levi says quietly while looking at him, watching him to see if Eren could see through his lie or not -- which usually he couldn't. "Are you sure? You know you can talk to me." Eren says softly while watching him closely. He seemed suspicious and there's two ways Levi can take this; continue to lie and play it off like nothing or tell him that he doesn't like the idea of Jean and him dating. Biting the inside of his bottom lip he sighed and shook his head. 'I'm fine, really, I just don't think that Jean will be good for you.' He decides to write down, looking away as he showed him the card -- thinking that Eren might get the hint and figure out that Levi liked him. Alas, Eren didn't get the subtle hint which was more or less a good thing, but he did look caught between confused and offended. "What do you mean? I know we didn't get along at first, but we really like each other now." He defended, clearly not liking that Levi didn't see them going well together.