Die For You. {A Beautiful Andrew D.Biersack Love Story}

_Chapter Twelve: Maybe I'm out but I didn't lost my mind._

Two weeks have passed away very speedily, and that means something that I could not love at all, and its Andy's wedding.

Its hurts like nobody can tell, I'm totally lost in my thoughts all the time. I can't eat normally since me in the normal days I don't too good, but not it's getting worst.

I don't know how describe this feeling, maybe it looks like numbness, darkness, paralyzed and the most important Emptiness.

Or it's like they took you in a boar and you already have seasickness, and start shaking you to make your body start feeling all that sickness remains. And suddenly they drown you without warning, and they left you drowning in all dark and cold ocean of destruction.

I know I'm nobody and I belong to no one and no soul belongs to me too, but I don't know why I feel that it's like big joke or a very big wrong mistake to everyone in all the way.

Any way today, it's should the same routine, like school, Sarah's repetitions and at home cleaning and all shits.

I woke up, early like always, I woke Sarah.

Prepared to her the breakfast, brushed teethes and get dressed and I like the most black possible.

As me Sarah got prepared too, and I don't know why she was way too pretty than the normal day. I know she is very fucking pretty but it's just she is more classy and cute with her dress and that war boots that fitting it perfectly, cause the Dress is grey and black and the boots were Dark deep grey.

Anyway, she eat her falcons with milk and me some juice.

We walked the alley, and waited for the bus.

-So, when are you gonna finish today? She asked me.

- I think I'm gonna finish before you then I'll bring you back, as usually. I respond little like WTH is she talking about.

-Oh, yeah. She said without any expression on her face.

After some minutes of silent I saw the bus came, and it was hers.

She walked in and waved to like a little bit.

I know I shouldn't tell this, but I miss the first times when we met, cause in those times she used to hug me and I liked that. And bizarrely I needed one just one hug from her right now!

I put the music on and since I shuffled it, it was Underdog by You Me At Six in first.

I started walking and by hearing the words in my ears, I remembered that this song I was listing to when Kyle just left me down!

God how I hate him myself for just being too dump to believe that someone would fall for me!

And there's another song by them it called "Stay With Me."

Then I arrive to my station, and it wasn't that far. And like by chance I found my bus.

I walked in and sit in the back near the window, I know it's too cliché but I don't give fuck I loved that view from the window.

Now, I actually I'm listening to Blasphemy by Bring Me The Horizon. Only god knows how I loved Oliver's voice and their words was just the sounds that my heart bitted for!

I'd give anything to have a little hug from Oliver or Matt!

Arrived, I saw Romelyn waiting for me in the hall actually it was usual. And the thing was after the first period we had a break project for working, to some chatting or for others kissing!