Chaos

7. He stares at me

Chapter 7,

HE STARES AT ME:

Charlotte

Today is a good day and I have no idea why, somehow I'm just happy. In the morning I went to the animal shelter straight away and helped the little Labrador that had a hip operation a few weeks before. He is so young and already has so slim chances to get adopted it hurts. I named him Skia, which is greek and means shadow. It kind of fits him well, since he quietly keeps to himself most of the time.

I dedicated most of my time in the shelter to him now, I would love to adopt him but my parents would never let me, so I try to give him as much love as possible in the shelter. He is now able to stand up and walk for a couple of minutes but he's hurting and that breaks my heart.

Getting home the first thing I do is jumping into the shower and then I just relax in my bed and watch Netflix.

Supernatural got me like Misha got Dean and it starts to get unhealthy. Still I use all my free time to just chill before I have to "urgently" tutor Oscar for an upcoming test this week.

I eat chocolate and just want to start a new episode, as my sister knocks on my bedroom door and tells me that Oscar is here.

I get out of bed unwillingly and stretch my hands over my head, then walk to my desk to get my school utensils.

Putting on my glasses I walk out of my room and into the living room where both Meredith and her boyfriend wait.

"Hey." I greet them and smile awkwardly.

After Oscar greets me back, he follows me into the kitchen.

"I'll be in my room, my nerd." My sister says to Oscar before kissing him one last time as if she would never see him again.

We both watch her bewildered as she walks out of the room seductively and then I watch Rain breathing in slowly, with his eyebrows raised.

As he catches my glance he shrugs "She's just passionate."

I chuckle silently and nod, yeah probably.

As I start to explain the topic, Oscar listens and makes great effort to follow. Something makes me stare at his forehead which is tuckered up, as he concentrates and I get this small little feeling inside my chest again, the one I always get when I'm with him, it makes me feel warm and giddy. But its nothing that I can't suppress.

I look away as fast as possible when he looks up, showing me the answers to the tasks I gave him. Pretending I never eyed him up and down, I look at his solutions and tell him happily what he's done right, tell him what he's done wrong and make him try to solve everything.

"I don't know Charlotte, where do I have to put the ²?"

Oscar asks confused and looks up.

"Look" I put my finger onto the piece of paper with all the math problems on it and give him a clue. "In this case it could never be next to the x."

Oscar fixes his glance on the paper again until lets out a understanding "oh" where he stretches the o.

He answers all the questions and I start to read the next chapter of his math book.

Somehow I must have gotten too caught up in it, looking at all the tips and exercises and figuring out what would help Oscar the most, because as I look up, my sisters boyfriend looks at me, just looks me and I have to swallow. His eyes are occupied with my lips and I furrown my eyebrowns. What the hell is wrong with him.

His looks wanders further and I now feel a bit stressed out, cause Oscar has never looked at me like that, correction, no one has ever looked at me like that. As his absent, lost eyes meet my confused ones he breaks out of the trance he seemed to be in and looks back at his paper again.

After a few moments pass, I decide to open my mouth and say something into the awkward silence.

"Uh... are you done?"

Oscar looks up again, a bit bewildered, as if he didnt know what I meant but then he seems to catch up with the situation and he nods.

"Yeah." he croaks and then clears his throat. "Yes I am."