The Quiet One

What is life

Jane has felt emotionless and alone , she has no friends and not a single person in her life that she trusts fully enough to talk to...she listened to music (*points upward*) she had no tears to shed unless it hit her hard while she did her homework she had a anxiety attack but nobody knew she bit her lip and trembled a bit as she kept everything in knowing nobody would care if she said anything as her eyelids were shutting and breath shortened..she wanted to yell she wanted to cry but nothing came out...her memories of her past that made her feel disgusting , worthless and unwanted...she felt watched but she shrugged it off as she drank some water since she felt watched more than fifteen times , she felt sick and like she was dying but martha  and her father say she's fine and she's not sick , not even bothering to check if she had a temperature ,such a great parent.

She finally got the attack off after what seemed like forever, she was hurting inside , Jane felt dead , she has no sanity left to spare since all she done was waste time on her family who never cared and she knew she'd never miss her cousin who tried to molest her several times , her friends who abandoned her after being like a family to her , she was broken badly all she has to feel left is humiliation.

Jane sighed as she looked at a picture of andy black and said to herself "if i were someone like Andy i would take people like us into a land of enchantment and freedom...to bad nobody can create a world like that anymore" she looked down as she walked to the living room watching foxy sing to "the foxy song" she wanted a person she could trust and smile with but she knew nobody liked her or had anything to do with a "bad" person from compton , she slammed her hands on the kitchen table shaking badly "they all left.." images of her last friends appeared in her mind "every single one of them...am i that bad...i want to know" she said as she trembled walking to the couch and laid down shutting her eyes.