The Quiet One

Pain and blades

Jane was sitting there emotionless as she entered the bathroom with a blade as she started to cut her hips deeper and deeper until she was numb she got up not bothering to clean up her dripping hips , she was smiling and giggling as she started to cackle and burst out laughing at the mirror. She finally caught her breath and left to the kitchen as she made her way making herself some cereal.

After she ate all her cereal she headed for a walk passing by a man with a coat and a hat covering half of his face she didn't have a good feeling about him but shruggef it off , after she bought some candy she headed home entering she saw sammy and her little brother crying as sammy yelled "stop eating shit mom you need to stop fighting please for fuck sake" they all saw my face as she started talking about me an my past using it against them as my father and martha both looked down but my father just went outside and pulled another cigarette and beer.

As jane listened to grenade by bruno mars she had tears falling as she had another anxiety attack but this time it was much stronger she couldn't yell all she could do was watch the tears fall from her eyes as she hugged her knees trembling as she started yelling in her head 'why the fuck do i exist why , id rather die' more tears streamed down her face as she clawed her arm , she was started by a knock on the door "jane are you ok?" it was sammy , "yes" she said "i just need time alone" after a few seconds sammy replied "well...if you ever want to talk to anyone i will be in my room" jane didn't want to talk to her , she told her mother anything jane would tell sammy but instead she replied with a yes and thank you.

She felt sick her stomach tightened , her heart fading, her legs growing sore , her eyes watering as she thought in her mind ' I can't take this anymore should i even move on with life? Why should i go on if i can't even trust myself , im just a insecure waste of space' she blasted her music as she bit her nail then around her thumb peeling off the skin of her thumb as it bled.