Wander Lost

Chapter 14

Chapter 14: Jared

I walked into James's bedroom and stopped short, mixed emotions shooting through me- but two in particular were the strongest. Anger and awkwardness. My eyes watched but my mind wandered into a deadly land. An area of my brain that was so depressing it could just bring you to suicide in an instant. His lips parted slightly while the other boy's lips trailed kisses down his neck. I watched silently for a moment before I cleared my throat. Both boys shot apart instantly. James's eyes widened.

"Uh, Jared, I-" James started crawling off the bed and stretching his arm to grab my arm but I was too far. He kept crawling closer and closer, then just jumped off the bed altogether and chased after me. I shook my head and gave him a sad smile.

"I get it, James. I'm just gonna go." I blinked and turned to leave but he grabbed my arm. I sighed and waited for him to say whatever the hell he wanted to say. He yanked me and held me close. I avoided his eyes and just stared at the side wall.

"I'm not letting you go that easily, Jared. I was pressured and he came onto me and-" He started but I shook my head and shot a sadistic smile his way. He gave me a sad look and let my face fall flat. James stared at me in disbelief and sadness.

"You're not letting me go. I'm letting you go." I pulled away and started walking out of his house. His long, thin fingers wrapped around my upper arm again and I hissed inwardly, stopped again. He yanked me close again, but this time he pressed his lips to mine eagerly. To be honest, I could still feel the strong feelings flow from his lips to mine- proving that he still cared. That he did still want me. So, I kissed him back.

I heard someone clear their throat and I ignored them. I pulled my arms up around James's neck and he kept his hands around my waist. I pressed up against him and he pressed against me. He started to kiss down my neck and I panted a little, looking over James's shoulder to the person who coughed. I smirked and sent him a look saying 'this is my man. Back the fuck off."

James dragged his tongue across my caller bone and I almost moaned, but I bit my lip. He nipped my skin and gave me a small glare and I let it go. He smiled and continued to kiss me, lick me, and rub me. The guy just stood there, transfixed. He seemed confused as to why James would touch me like this but not him. I smirked bigger.

"Well, James, I'm leaving." He muttered and walked to the front door. James just waved him off and continued to lick me. Once the front door was closed, though, I crashed my lips against his and did it fiercely, too. His body responded immediately and he rubbed against me. I gripped the back of his legs and lifted him up, causing him to wrap his legs around my waist. I carried him to the couch and dropped him down on the couch, laying on top of him.

"I love you, you know." James whispered and moaned at the same time, turning me on all the more. I started to pull his shirt off and kissed down his chest, leaving little hickeys every here and there. I reached his belly button and trailed my tongue along the rim. He arched his back and dug his fingers into my bare back. I laughed and rubbed his chest up and down.

I heard the door open and jumped off of James, tossing him his shirt and pulling my own on. The door shut and I sat down next to a panting and glaring James just as his mom walked into the room. She saw our state, winked at James, and turned- walking right back out. I let my jaw drop and I gave James a confused look. He snickered and slung one arm over my shoulders. I gave him a 'tell me what happened' look and he sighed, coming closer.

"Tanner Schneider is the son of the fill in doctor at school. Remember him?" James gave me a questioning look and I nodded, remembering the odd doctor. James continued, "Well, the doctor sent Tanner over to check on you- getting the files from the school- and decided to send him here- knowing if you weren't here, I would at least know where you were. Anyways, I guess being gay runs in his family because next thing I knew- he was kissing me. I'm sorry I didn't force him to stop." He whispered the last part and I was quiet for a second.

"Did you enjoy it. Tell me, honest to God." I stared into his eyes and saw confliction, then a sign of that blank face before he let it all go and a big amount of remorse and love glowed in his everlasting blue eyes.

"A little." He said, loud and clear, but I could see in his eyes that he was upset that someone else had arroused him even though he barely knew them. I normally would have just told him to screw off and left because he came sure as hell close to seriously cheating on me- but I just felt too much for James. It wasn't like I ever thought he might do it again. I trusted him for the past five years or so. I wasn't going to let that fall. I was falling in love with him. Not exactly in love, yet, but close. I felt strongly for him.

"It's okay." I muttered, but I don't think he heard me because he continued on what he had been saying. He came closer, swung one leg over my hips and leaned down, pressing his forhead to mine.

"But nowhere close to as much as you make me enjoy this." He kissed my lips. "Or this." He rubbed my thighs. "Or this." He slid his hands to this inside area of my legs and I tensed, unsure of what he was doing. It was mostly teasing but there was some lust in his eyes. Not some, I corrected myself mentally, a lot.

"I enjoy this, too. I enjoy you." I whispered, huskily. He kissed me harshly and pushed me down on my back- still on the couch. He grinded against me and I arched my back a little, so turned on by our make out session. I slid my hands into his back pockets and squeezed his ass. His eyes seemed to have a flash of recognition and his face turned bright red. He must be remembering our first time. I laughed at that.

"Don't laugh." He pouted and layed down on top of me. I kept my hands in his back pockets and gave him an amused look.

"And why not?" I chuckled and he started to move away. I held him down tight and he narrowed his eyes at me.

"Because it makes me feel like you're laughing at me. Which you probably are." He huffed and I flipped us sideways so I could lift my arms and rub his back. He hugged me tight and I moved my hands in a circular motion on his back. He sighed and lay his head down on my shoulder. "I'm tired, J." He muttered and started to let his eyes shut. I held him close and smiled.

"Of course you are. Just go to sleep." I said and he started to drift off, his breathing becoming soft. I held him to me as tight as I could and took it as a physical state as well as a emotional state. I'm never letting him go.

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I woke up a couple of hours later, laying in a bed that was so soft I could just lay there forever. Someone's arms were wound around my waist, tight, and a head was pressed to my back. I rolled over and my eyes fell upon a pair of soft, pink lips. I pressed mine to those ones softly and pulled away, my eyes meeting the beautiful blue ones that belonged on only James's perfect face.

"Morning, Beautiful." He said, softly, and tilted his head, leaning it against mine. I stared into his eyes, confused then turned to look at the clock. It read seven in the morning. It was a Monday, too. Shit.

"Are we going to be late?" I asked, alarmed. He laughed and shook his head. I nodded, not wanting to think, then sat up. I pulled James up with me and kissed his lips softly, again. He moaned softly, contently, and pulled me out of bed.

"We need to get ready, though." He laughed and tugged me towards the shower. I obliged and let him take me in. He pulled off his shirt and laughed, tugging on mine. I shook my head and muttered a 'huh' before understanding dawned on me and I blushed.

"Together?" I asked, confused. He nodded and bit his lip.

"If that's okay with you." He added to his nod, fiddling with the hem of his red shirt. I nodded and smiled at him, pulling off all of my clothes. I waited for him but he continued to stare at the floor. I lifted his chin and he looked away.

"What's wrong?" I asked, concerned. He shook his head and started to undress. I turned the water on and stepped into the large shower, pulling him in with me. He still seemed a little distressed. I kissed him a little too hard, but he just pulled me against him and we both moaned loudly at the contact our lower areas made. He dropped down in front of me and I gasped, shocked at his actions.

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Haha Okay, I Think It Might Be A little short. Like two pages, but that was all I could do and I liked where I cut it off at. Hope you enjoyed the hotness.. I tried to make it good. Shocking motions. Don't think Tanner is gone just yet... =O Aha Okay Please Vote, Comment, Fan. :) Thanks For Reading. :D