I rolled out of bed the next morning and ate a bowl of cereal for breakfast. Angel and Bri wanted to go out to this restaurant for lunch so I agreed to it.
It was now 11 'o clock so I got up to get dress. I went into to the bedroom and scanned the closet. Flinging clothes every where throughout my bedroom. I put on black high waist leggings and a fitted white tank. I put the front of my hair into a bun. I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth until my my tongue started to tingle.
I grabbed my make up bag and put pink lip gloss onto my lips. I added a little mascara onto my full and long eye lashes. I used my eye liner to make a cat eyes. I looked in the mirror at the finished product with a smile. I walked out my room and sat down on the reclining chair in the living room then went over to my phone which was plugged up on the floor. I left my phone charge a little while longer trying to reach a 100% charge before I go.
When we arrived to Red Lobster we took seats and started looking over the menu. The waiter came waiter came and asked what we wanted to drink then returned shortly later to take out order.
"So what happened last night, did you tell him" Angel asks.
"I didn't tell him, but he walked in while I was changing and saw the baby bump" I say drinking some of my strawberry lemonade while they drank their margaritas.
"Was he mad that you didn't tell them?"
I shake my head no "But he thought just because I was pregnant I was coming home"
"I miss y'all being together" Briana says. "You miss us being together or you just want me out your house?" I laugh with a roll of my eyes.
"I like your company but I miss seeing you happy." Briana adds in. "I'm happy though." I say with a smile.
"Are you really?" Angel asks and I nod my head yes. "As long as I got my son I'm happy" I say. Angel and Bri just looks at me, I already knew the knew I was lying. I pull out my phone and just go on all my social media accounts, making a few snapchats while sitting at the table.
"I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning" I tell them.
"Okay I'll tell Odell to be there" Angel says and I just stare not saying anything. It would be nice to have him there with me.
After we were done eating we headed to a few different stores. I bought Messiah a few pairs of shoes. I didn't want to blow a lot of money on clothes and shoes. I wasn't in a shopping mood. But them lil hoes love to shop whenever. A few hours later we headed to Odell's mom house to get Messiah. To my surprise I seen Odell's car parked in the driveway. I didn't expect to see him today.
We parked behind Odell's car and I got out the car going over to the door, while they stayed in the car listening to 21 Savage. I walked inside and seen Heather sitting down on the couch with Odell and Messiah watching a movie.
"Hi" I say and they turn to look at me. "Hi mommy" Siah greets. "Hey Sum" Heather says as well
"Summer lets talk" Odell says getting up walking to the kitchen giving me no time to respond. What if I didn't want to talk to you? I follow him to the kitchen nervously, not knowing what the topic of this conversation would be about.
"So how long we gon do this?" He asks looking me dead in the face
"Do what?" I respond putting on a confused look, even though I knew exactly what he was talking about. "This bullshit" He seemed a little...angry.
"Oh me having morals and not running back to your bed?" I say back with a sarcastic tone. He just looks at me and shake his head.
"We need to work this out, I'm not letting 7 years go down the drain" Awe so now all of a sudden the seven years matter.
"You should've thought about that before you slept with that girl" I snap back and he just stares back with an unreadable expression. Whenever I mention him cheating the images of him with some other girl pops up in my head and it just makes me cry and mad as hell at the same time. "I gave you all me Odell. What did she give you that I didn't?"
"Summer it wasn't like that," Odell grabs my hand "I screwed up, I know. It was a one night stand that shouldn't have happened."
"But it did Odell." I snatch my hand away. I could feel the tears forming again.
"I'm sorry"
"I can't do shit with a sorry!" I shout but then I realized we were at his mom house so I tried to quiet down.
"You can accept my apology and we can try to move past this"
"I love you but this isn't something I can just move past Odell" I say back as a tear cascade down my cheek. He says sighs loudly and turns around no longer looking at me. He walks over to the counter top and place his face in the palm of hands before looking up at me again.
"I vowed not to intentionally hurt you and I didn't. I want this to work but if you're just gonna hold grudges forever then we should just call it quits. I want you to be happy and it's clear to me I don't make you happy anymore." Odell says
I couldn't believe it. I couldn't even utter a sound I just stood there blankly. The tears in my eyes caused my vision to blur. I just can't believe this is the end. I just wanted to say that he was tripping and I wasn't going anywhere but my pride wouldn't let me. He's done fighting for me. I couldn't expect him to fight forever right? He just gave up on us, I guess this is my fault. I'm not the one who did wrong though, I shouldn't be blaming myself.
"Maybe you're right" My voice croaks and I turn around and walk out the kitchen. I didn't want him to see me cry.
"Siah say bye to granny" I say as my voice continues to croak.
"Summer what's wrong?" Heather asks and I just shake my head "Nothing" I grab Messiah's duffle bag off the couch.
"Mommy are you crying?" Messiah questions and I wipe my face and shake my head no faking a smile. I could hear Odell walking back into the living room. I hold Messiah's hand and walk out the house quickly as the tears just started to stream. Messiah climbs into the backseat with Briana and I get into the passenger seat.
"You okay? What happened?" Angel asks and I just break down crying. I haven't cried this hard in years.
"Summer what happened?!" Briana asks above my weeps.
'H-h-he doesn't love me anymore" I cry out and I just continue to sob. I could feel Angel and Briana rub my back. They didn't know what to say and I was happy they didn't. I just wanted them to stay quiet. I felt like shit, my heart hurt, my head hurt, everything was just bad. I can't believe my marriage is actually over. I can't see myself with anyone but Odell. I'll be a single parent raising two kids on my own. Can I actually do this?
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