HEYYYYYYY! Ok I have to say how sorry I am for not updating In a long time.. this semester is almost over so a lot of studying has been going on. But here’s a little update.. and yes harry will be coming in very very soon….
Also remember how I said I wanted to change the name well I’ll be doing that too I have the perfect name.. but it will be a little surprise…
Also what do you guys think about Midnight Memories? I LOVE IT!!! <3 its my favorite album from them and all of the songs are my favorite!!
Oh one more thing….. my birthday is in like about an hour!! Im turning 18 you guys!! (: and its also thanksgiving in an hour so happy thanksgiving!!
ALSOO!! there is a picture of Leo to the right lol!
It was almost the end of the winter break, which meant I had to go back to school in a week. I really didn’t want to go back because I had already got used to being 24/7 with Leo, since my parents left to a business trip and decided it was best if I stayed with my grandma. They didn’t even bother asking me if I wanted to come with, but I guess it was better for me. I really loved spending time with Leo, although I did avoid going to his house as much as I could. I had to go two or three times because he was starting to get confused as why I didn’t want to go to his house anymore, since I used to love being there.
It was already nine in the afternoon and we were still in the park behind my nanny’s house.
“I can’t believe I’ve never asked you this, but what do you want to be when you grow up?” I asked Leo, I was very curious to what his answer will be.
“Um actually I want to be a Physiotherapist.” He replied with a smile from ear to ear.
“Wow really I didn’t know that..that’s …wait what is that? Like what would you do?” I asked so oblivious as to what a physiotherapist did.
“Haha I had a feeling you would ask that.”
“What do I really look that dumb?” I am not dumb, I would actually considered myself to be very smart but maybe I was just smart with numbers and making good deals.
“Noooo…. Not at all” trying to hold his smile he continued.” A physiotherapist is a type of doctor that helps with sprained ankles, knee injuries, fractures, etc.”
oh god I felt so stupid. Of course that’s what a physiowhatever is. It’s just that the name sounded to fancy.
“I knew that” I replied trying to hide a smirk as I played with my fingers.
“HAHA sure you did.” He said patting my back. “and you? What do you want to be when you grow up Sam?
I shrug my shoulders. I really didn’t know what I wanted to be when grew up.
“You still have plenty of time to think about it.” He said while playing with my hands. “gosh Samantha.. why are your hands always so cold? He asked
“Oh I don’t know maybe because it’s cold?” sarcasm clear in my tone
“No, I mean your hands are cold even when its 90 degrees.” He’s right my hands are always cold but I can’t help it, all the people that have tried to warm them fail at it. At this point I had already accustom to them.
“I guess I just belong in the cold weather, I’m moving to Antarctica.” I playfully told him.
His expression randomly changed from happy to sad? I couldn’t quite figure it out.
“Would you really leave? I mean if you had the chance to move somewhere else?” he asked.
I really don’t know where that came from but my answer is yes. I always wanted to travel the world, I am not a very stable person so moving would really be a problem for me.
“Yes” I replied carefully trying to read his face for a sign if I should continue. He finally nodded for me to continue. “I would, actually my dream was to move to London whenever I finished college. But I mean college is years from now.”
“OH” is all he managed to say. I saw that he wanted to say more but nothing came out of his mouth.
“Why?” I asked knowing he wouldn’t answer my question. He did that a lot. Leo always avoided answering questions that involved some sort of deep feeling.
“How come you don’t talk to me?” I really wanted him to open up a little.
“What do you mean? We are talking aren’t we?” ugh here comes the same old Leo.
“You know what I mean.”
After a few seconds of waiting for an answer he finally sighed and brushed his hand through his hair.
“I..I don’t like to share my feelings because… well because once you let people know what your feeling they used that against you. Once you let your guard down you’re knocked out.”
I wanted to laugh a little to his example of boxing, but I had to hold it because maybe that was the last time I would hear him be sincere with me. At least I know why he does it. Although I am hurt a little because I am, well at least he is my best friend. Maybe that was it he didn’t consider me a good friend. I wanted to ask but I am a little afraid of what his answer might be.
“You could do that too you know?” he suggested. What was he trying to say?
“what is that supposed to mean?” I said a little louder than I intended.
“Nothing.. just that if you want to avoid getting hurt, don’t let people know what you feel, don’t let them see through you.” His face was blank, with no expression what so ever.
I guess he could be right.
