Part 11
WARNING: this chapter will contain abusive content.
Thankfully summer has arrived and I survived my freshman year of high school. The first thing I did when I got home was throw myself in my very comfy bed I had missed sooo much. I decided to take a shower since it is 90 degrees outside and I kind of stink. After my very cold shower, yes I love cold showers not only does it refresh you but it kind of clears your head at least for the 15 min you’re in there.
I sighed to the fact that I forgot my towel. I had to run soaking wet and naked from my bathroom to my room. Thankfully no one was home, my mother just drop me off because she had work or something to do. I quickly dried myself, put on some underwear, and slipped a pair of white jean shorts and my Ramones shirt my uncle left the last time he was here. Yes now it’s mine because he probably won’t come back for it, so might as well. I just finished tying my black vans and I headed back to the bathroom, I put my hair into a side braid and brushed my teeth, oh that’s one thing about me I am a brushing teeth maniac, I can’t stand the fact that there might be a slight chance that my breath will stink.
I quickly made my way downstairs, I grabbed my keys and headed to Leo’s house. I didn’t like the fact that I had to go to his house but he told me to meet him there and I just didn’t want to agitate the subject. It was 5 so I figured Noel wouldn’t be at his house, great for me.
When I arrived to Leo’s house I put my iPod in my pocket and I knocked on the door 3 times. As soon as I saw who opened the door my stomach twirled in annoyance.
Noel.
“Oh look who came to delighted us with her presence.” He remarked sarcastically
“Is Leo here?” I asked trying to sound as nice as possible but with a dick like him I didn’t try my best. I could careless about what he thinks of my bad manners.
“Nah” and with that he turned around to get inside his house but it surprised me as he left the door open. “You can wait for him,” he said nodding for me to come inside.
“It’s okay I can wait for him outside” I don’t want to be anywhere near this guy.
“Fine if you rather burn the hell out, suit yourself.” Ugh he was right it was 90 degrees outside. Oh how I hate the weather.
I looked at him for a second and decided to come inside. “Thanks” I said while walking inside his house. He left to his room and I stayed in the living room. I got out my iPod and decided to listen to music while waiting for Leo, he probably won’t be long.
I stand corrected its been almost and hour and Leo hasn’t showed up or his mom.
“I’m bored” I heard Noel said from the kitchen counter as I was standing up from the couch. When did he get there?
“Mmm okay?” I felt so awkward whenever he was around.
“Lets do something while we wait for Leo.” I could see a smirk on his face while he walked to the living room.
“It..It’s okay you know” I was having trouble speaking with him looking at me with a stupid smirk on his face it made me so uncomfortable. “I was leaving anyways…it is getting late.”
“Oh come on Sami” my body shivered at the way the words sounded coming out of his mouth. I need to get out of here. “6 is not late, you’re always hanging out with my brother until 9, 10 that is late.”
“What do you guys do so late?” I could feel him getting closer to me but I refused to look up to see him. “huh” he hold my chin with his fingers forcing me to look at him. “Now your shy? Come on everyone knows you have a filthy mouth, maybe that’s why my brother spends so much time with you right?”
What is he trying to say?
He hold my face with both of his hands, as I turned my face to the side because I didn’t want to look at him. His breath smelled of beer, he had been drinking. His hands moved from my face to my neck.
“Get away from me” I told him while trying to jerk his hands away from me but that only made it worse. He tighten the grip on my neck. “Please leave me alone” I tried to tell him but it was like only whispers could come out of my mouth.
“Now you’re going to be a good girl,” and with that he clamped his hand over my mouth as I began screeching at the top of my lungs, he backed me into his bedroom until I has trapped against his now closed door and his filthy hands began roaming my body.
“No! Please! Please!?” I begged as he ripped my shirt from my body, leaving me in my bra and shorts. His rough hand closed around my throat as he held me against the door. Choking noises were fighting their way out of my mouth. I could feel my face turn red from the pressure and lack of oxygen as he brought his face down to mine and whisper in my ear, “Don’t try and fight it,” his breath smelled of beer as he released my throat. Violent coughing raked through my body as I tried to suck enough oxygen into my mouth so I wouldn’t passed out.
He grabbed me once again and threw me onto the bed. I landed on my back, more screams leaving my mouth as Noel hurriedly climbed on top of me, pinning me to the bed as he quickly ripped popped the button of my shorts and slide them off as well as my underwear. I kept trying to kick and scream begging him to stop, begging for anyone to help.. for Leo or anyone else to rescue me. I was crying so hard that my throat was aching because of unshed tears and incessant screams.
In one swift motion, he held my arms over my head, squeezing my wrists so tightly, I though they were going to break. With his free hand, through the non-stopping tears on my eyes, I was still able to see him free himself and slip on a condom. More tears slid down my cheeks as I kicked and begged for him to stop.
More screams trampled my throat as he squeezed my breasts so carelessly and tightly I could immediately feel them bruising. With no warning at all, no consideration whatsoever for the fact that I was a virgin, he slammed himself into me, hard and fast. The pain was excruciating and any of the pain I had felt before could compare to this. My screams and cries only seem to egg him further, he covered my mouth with his own in an attempt to shut me up, as he ravaged my face and tore my body apart.
I cried silently all throughout while staring up at the ceiling focusing on one spot, trying to wish myself away from here. Although at this that point, my lower region just felt completely numb. I stared at my spot on the ceiling when we was finished with me, leaving me bloody and battered on the bed. He left the room and after summoning every ounce of strength I could muster, I dragged my body from the ruins of my innocence and stumble to gather my clothes. I tried my best to quickly get dressed and get out of this hell.
As I walked out of the room I saw him in the kitchen eating a god damn fucking sandwich as Id nothing had happened. He fucking rapped me. While making my way out of this house I heard his footsteps approaching me, he grabbed my forearm and twist me around so I could look at him but I wouldn’t dare.
“You better don’t say a word about this little bitch.. do you understand?” I just kept looking at the floor when I heard him repeat himself but this time he screamed it. I just nodded my head and quickly turned around and ran home.
Once within the safe wall of my bedroom, I slammed the door shut thanking god that my parents weren’t home as usual. I made it half way across my room before crumbling to the floor, releasing scream after scream of agony and defeat. My breathing was so ragged; I was to a point where I literally felt like I could not get any oxygen to travel my lungs. My raw throat ached and I could still taste a hint of beer in my mouth. I tried to stand again, but immediately fell back down. So gritting my teeth and clenching my jaw, I half crawled, half dragged myself to my bathroom.
I just lay on the floor for a while staring at the ceiling as sobs racked my entire body. Why cant someone, anyone be here to hold me? Protect me? I just need someone to tell me that this pain will go away and that things will be better.
