Hellooooo!! i updated today again because well i was inspired to write i guess plus today i took my last final for this semester so yeah enjoy!!!
“No, I mean I like you Samantha, as in i..i have feelings for you.”
WHAT?! Omg omg omg did he just really say that? Did I hear right? No way…
“Samantha… please say something, anything.” I can tell how nervous he is getting but I really don’t know what to say. I mean I like him too, I really do. I like him in the way that you have feelings for them.
“Err…Really? You like ME?” I am not so sure why he likes me, I mean I am not that bad but I always thought he had a thing for girly girls.
“Of course I like you, I mean why wouldn’t I? You are Gorgeous, spontaneous, strong, funny, nice.” I can feel myself blushing at his words.
“Okay, okay” I put my hands on my face to try and cover up the redness but I have a feeling he had already noticed. “I..I think I like you too Leo.” I bravely said.
“You think?” Leo asks me but I hint a little disappointment.
“Yeah, well I mean I like you more than just a friend.. but I don’t know what to do,” I answer truthfully. I’ve never liked anyone before, Leo is the first guy I have feelings for and I don’t know what comes next after actually admitting you do.
“I really like you Sam, I just want you to know that first of all,” he reaches across the small table for my hands and intertwines them with his. “I won’t ask you to be my girlfriend right now.”
“Oh” is all I can manage to say and I just look down.
I quickly try to remove my hands from his but he holds them in place.
“Hey Sam.. hey look at me.” He stands up from his seat and moves his chair to seat next to me. He holds my chin forcing me to look at him, not really forcing because I really want to look at him. “I said not right now but I will later on because first I want you to be comfortable with this..us” he says while waving his hands between us. “I want to take you out some more and if it feels right for the both of us then I’ll gladly ask you to be my girlfriend, okay?” I can’t help the smile that is forming; he really is the sweetest boy in the entire world.
“Okay!” he pulls me in his arms for a hug. I can’t explain how it feels…nice. He is the first person that has hugged me in a long time and I like it.
“Happy Birthday Sam!” he whispered in my ear.
It’s already Sunday and today Leo is taking me on our second date. On Saturday he took me to this little ice cream place, even though it’s almost December the weather here is bipolar. At night he took me to grab some pizza because he knows how much I love pizza, well I love all food; so I don’t think it’ll be hard for him to take me places.
Today he took me to our park. He said he had to because that’s where we met almost 3 years ago. I really can’t believe it’s been that long probably because most of that time I didn’t see him.
This boy is just absolutely handsome, I mean he has perfect plumy lips, his eyes are a beautiful shade of gray and that dimple makes me feel butterflies in my stomach. Then he has this adorable chocolate curls slightly shaken that gives them a messy look but hot at the same time. I am trying really hard to push Noel out of my thoughts but it quite impossible since his brother looks so much like him. Images of that day flash through my mind and I try to shake them but they just keep hunting me.
“Is something wrong? Did I do something wrong Samantha?” Leo asks me worriedly.
Leo’s P.O.V
“Leo… I’m sorry. Ok? You can find better than me. I’m not good for you… I’m not good for anyone anymore,” Samantha says.
What the hell is going on? One minute we were just fine and the next she is telling me this.. I hope she didn’t change her mind on giving us a try, so quickly I mean this is barely our second date.
“Woah woah woah, where is all this coming from Sam?” I tried to step closer to her but she only moves farther away. Ok this is serious.
“Seriously though, what do you see in me Leo? Tell me because I can’t make up my mind…How can you still like me after..after what happened?” I know that she is referring to what happened to her. Every day I think about that and every time is makes me even angrier. I wish I could go back in time and prevent that from happening to her.
“No Samantha that doesn’t make me love you any less, and I see everything in you; you are sort of this flame that ignites in me, I really don’t know how to explain it though. Just know that you are everything to me.” I know those words are too strong but they are true. I think I will love this girl for the rest of my life and she probably doesn’t know that yet but I will let her know.
“Are you sure?”
“Of course I’m sure,” I reassure her and pull her in for a hug. “I’m head over heels for you, noticing every little thing that you do. It’ll be 12 a.m. and I’ll be thinking about all the reasons why we’re are perfect for each other and I just hope that one day you’ll see that. I will be here for you always.” I kiss the top of her head and her scent fills my senses.
“No matter how sad I get, or how bad things are or how horrible I feel I’m really glad I have you Leo. Somehow that is enough to keep me going, thank you.” I heard her tell me and it makes me happy to hear that I’m one of the reasons that keep her from falling apart after everything that has happened to her.
I place my fingers under her chin so that she’d meet my eyes, “Sam…no matter what happens, just know that you’ve changed my life… do-don’t forget about me..”I said as I held her face in my hands. I feel like she should know that before I ever have the chance again, even if she doesn’t understand at this moment.
She nods and I hug her again. I don’t think I could ever get tired of holding her.
I’m glad she doesn’t question what I just told her. “I wish that we could stay like this Leo. I just wish that life was easy like that.. you know?” she asks and I just move my hand up and down her back comforting her.
I didn’t respond for a few minutes as I thought of what to say, “Maybe we can,” I replied gently. We stand there in comfortable silence; I could feel her heartbeat against my chest.
As I could hear our breathing in sync, I decided that I was just going to take it as it comes. Life isn’t always fair… but I’m going to take the moment while it’s here.. and I silently pray that we would have many more perfect moments, such as this one.
