Emir And Feriha - The Journey Continues

Part 20

Emir picked up Can from Aysun's home and took him to sea side cafè. They settled in a sea facing table and emir discussed with Can on his choice of drink.
Emir ordered a strawberry milkshake for Can and coffee for himself.
"Can,what do you want to discuss ?"
"Emir brother, I wanted to talk to you something that's troubling me" emir looked at him worriedly.
" it's actually mom. Mom, now a days... How do I tell you..I am happy that she is marrying but she is neglecting me ....yes ...I feel she is too busy with Mr. Unal...I don't have anything against him, but somewhere something is not right."
"You don't have to be diplomatic with me Can, tell me all that you want to say"
" emir brother, mom is rarely home, we are supposed to shift to Mr. Unal's house, I am yet not that comfortable with this"
"Did you speak to her about this"
" no, if only she has time for me. It's such a big change for me, I find it difficult to adjust".
For emir the history was repeating again. He remained silent for sometime, Can sipped on his strawberry milkshake quietly. He was quite restless and somewhere insecure.
Emir said "can, this is just a phase, everything will settle with time. But I will suggest you should talk to mom once"
Can nodded " I am not sure, I don't want to make her unhappy"
"You are not going to make her unhappy, you are going to make things clearer. She may understand you"
" let's see"
"Think about it"
"Brother, thanks!"
"Can, you don't have to thank me"
"It's only with you I could think of sharing this who will understand this. I felt lonely"
Emir blinked his eyes with a faint smile.

Feriha was talking to zehra, when gulsum came. Feriha prompted gulsum to come with her in the room to talk. Gulsum looked disturbed. Her demeanour was pensive and gloomy. As they sat on the bed, gulsum couldn't control herself, she hugged feriha and cried. " I knew feriha this would come but so soon" she said while sobbing."my heart aches, the demon I lived with all these years is infront of me. I lost the battle. She would say koray is mine and look it is true"
Feriha patted her back and said "gulsum, you always knew this. You knew the nest was never yours. You have a life infront of you. You are educated and you can build a successful life for yourself, for your son. Your sorrow I can understand but you have to move on.look at me" gulsum looked at her with teary eyes " you are a strong woman, you have to raise a son you cannot be weak and cry over spilled milk. Think of how to rise"
Gulsum wiped her tears and said " koray wants me to talk to Kaan about his marraige and hande"
"Gulsum, no matter how complicated your relation has been with koray, he is kaan's father and You have a tough job of maintaining their bond inspite of distance. And I am sure you can do that."
Gulsum nodded, she knew feriha was right. She cannot bereave Kaan from his fathers love. He has full right to it and accepting the present situation and moving on was the only way out.

Emir was dragged into his past memories after his talk with Can. While driving back home he couldn't get rid of the feeling of unwanted that he felt then. On that evening when he overheard her step father asking his mom to abandon him for the greater good, he felt unwanted. Unwanted by his mother, unwanted by his step father whom he was struggling to make his father, unwanted by his father. As he grew older, to overcome this feeling of unwanted he did everything to try to feel wanted. But he knew these girls wanted him for benefits, this was not what he wanted until he met feriha. He knew he was wanted in her nest. He had reached home and pulled up his car in car pack.

Feriha was waiting for emir. She was sitting on the chair and mindlessly reading the book. She couldn't concentrate on the book and read the same paragraph again and again. Gulsum's sadness was troubling her. She knew in her heart always that gulsum will be hurt in this marraige, she had warned koray. But it was fate. Gulsum was too young to enter into a complicated matrimony. She couldn't do much now, now that everything was finally falling into place. She sighed loudly and decided to think not anymore on this and turned the page of the book. She tried reading it again but it was another vain attempt. She abandoned the idea of reading the book and was keeping the book on the table when the doorbell rang. She opened the door.
Emir got in the house and went to the bedroom straight away. she understood something is not right.
She followed him inside and watched him changing his clothes still lost in his thoughts.
"Emir" she called out to him
He acknowledged her "everything is fine" she remained silent
" just not feeling very good"
Feriha went to him and hugged him and asked "can?"
" he is fine, just that he is finding it difficult to cope with the transitions, mom's marraige"
Feriha looked at him and kissed him on his cheeks. She sensed why emir was not feeling right and she held him tightly in the hug.

The coming week was very busy for emir and Feriha. Feriha was busy with cansu with new recruitments. They were reworking on marketing and house keeping. They had planned some staff training as well. There was too much on the platter for Feriha. When she could grab sometime she would peep in the club to see the progress of work going on but rarely disturbing emir, who would be deeply engrossed in work.

While preparing the guest list, aysun was in a fix over invitation to yilmazs. She discussed this with Unal , in lieu of the strained and complicated past relationship that they shared she was in dilemma to include them in the guest list. She decided to talk this over diplomatically with Feriha. Feriha gauged her reluctance and told her not to.

The weekend neared and so did the day of aysun and Unal's wedding. On the day of wedding emir and Feriha got ready and emir asked her about her parents when are they coming?
Feriha said that they are not coming
Emir looked at her bewildered she said " emir, they would get uncomfortable, so I told her to exclude them for guest list" emir nodded his head and said " I know, I know it now. They don't want your folks to come!" He said angrily.
" it's not her, it's me"
"Why you didn't tell me?"
" I didn't think it was that important. Come on now emir, lets go"
"After all this you expect me to go"
"Emir, please, let it be" Feriha pushed emir to go, and he went reluctantly.