Be Mine. | Justin Bieber

Chapter 10

Chapter 10 - Unknown Feelings

I slowly opened my eyes the next morning. I didn't want to wake up but I knew that I wouldn't fall asleep again. I took my phone to look at how late it was. It was 12.25 PM. Did I really sleep that long? I must have been really tired. I notice that I didn't have a message on my phone at that meant that Justin didn't text me. He usually texted me every time he went sleeping and every time he woke up. But not this morning. Maybe he was still sleeping but he didn't send me a goodnight message. I just ignored it I didn't want to be in a bad mood already. I stood up and walked downstairs into the kitchen. I made breakfast. My mom wasn't home she was at work. After I finished eating I tidied up the kitchen and walked back into my room. I decided to take a bath so I could relax for an hour.

It felt really good to relax and forget about everything for a while. I got dressed and blow-dried my hair. I sat down on my bed. I was just looking around my room. I was thinking about ... nothing. Then Justin suddenly popped up in my thoughts. I needed to talk to him. I couldn't take it anymore.

To Justin
From Julie

We need to talk. Can you come to my house? ... NOW?

I hoped that he had a bit of time for me because I really wanted everything to be okay again.

To Julie
From Justin

On my way.

Okay good. He's coming. I quickly walked downstairs and waited for Justin.

A half-hour later he arrived. I opened the door for him. He walked in and we headed to the living room. Suddenly I became nervous. He sat down next to me. I said nothing. I didn't even look at him.

"What's up, honey?" He asked and looked at me. I bit my lip and looked at him now but I just didn't know how to start.

"Um Justin listen .. " I sighed and looked at the ground.

"No no, look at me babe." He said and lifted my head by grabbing my chin between his thumb and index finger. I looked at him again.

"It's just ... you are so weird since last week I don't know. You seem so distant and you just get a call and leave immediately. Remember the last time you were at my house and yesterday at Stella's? I have the feeling your hiding something from me or maybe I did something wrong because you're acting so distant especially towards me. If I did something, please tell me." I sighed.

"I'm not hiding something from you and you did definitely nothing wrong. Why would you think that?" He said.

"I don't know. I just have this feeling."

"I'm just pretty busy but it has nothing to do with you okay? Never think that again and I didn't mean to be distant or something. I'm sorry." He apologized.

"It's alright, Justin. I was just afraid that I could lose you." I said. He pulled me into a hug and kissed my forehead.

"You'll never lose me. You mean so much to me." He said and I smiled. We just hugged each other for minutes, it was just adorable. I loved it when he hugged me. It felt really good and I felt so safe. Justin stayed for two more hours and then he left. I was just happy that everything was fine again.

Later that day I was getting ready for the house party tonight. I didn't want to go but Stella wanted me to come and because I love her I decided to go. I told her that she didn't need to pick me up, I would just drive on my own. I finished getting ready around 11 and then I left an hour later.

Arriving at the party I already saw drunk people. I hated to pass them because they were always talking and asking some silly questions. It was really annoying. I ignored them and walked into the house, it was really huge. The air was filled with the smell of alcohol and smoke of cigarettes.

I looked for my clique and it seemed impossible to find them because so many people filled the house. They were talking, dancing, drinking and laughing. I wished I could do that too but well not alone.

Pushing past the crowd of people I happen to find some girls of my cheerleading team. I greeted them and talked to them for a second. One of them told me where I could find my clique and I immediately went looking for them.

After a few minutes, I finally found them. I first greeted my girls and then my boys. I also greeted some other girls in my team who were sitting there as well. I didn't talk to the few boys of the basketball team because they never paid attention to me so why should I?

Suddenly Chelsea came. Chelsea was the girl who told me a month ago that Justin was hers. I hated her and she hated me. Everytime she saw me with Justin she would just be jealous as fuck and annoy us everytime. But lately she doesn't annoy Justin as much as she used to, he just got used to her and I seriously hated it. Never mind. She sat down next to Justin and they hugged each other. Ew. I shook my head and looked away.

"Someone jealous?" Stella asked as she smirked at me.

"What? Me? Jealous? Of her? Ew, hell no." I answered, emphasizing every word. "I just hate her and I don't understand how Justin can like her." I rolled my eyes.

"I know I understand. I mean we all don't like her expect Justin."

"Yeah and I hate it. He is supposed to be on my side I mean he is my best friend, not hers." I rolled my eyes in annoyance.

"Jealousy." She sing-sang.

"Shut up." I chuckled. "Come on let's dance." I wanted to get that bitch out of my sight. Stella nodded and we walked to the dancefloor. We took Leah, Chaz, and Ryan with us. Justin was busy with that bitch.

The whole night was actually really good. The only bad thing was that Justin didn't talk to me. I went outside for a few minutes because I needed some fresh air to clear my mind a bit.

When I walked back in the others literally disappeared. Stella, Chaz, and Justin weren't there anymore. Even Chelsea left. Leah was hooking up with some guy. Stella obviously left with Chaz but Justin? Where was he? I hoped that he didn't leave with Chelsea because I wouldn't take it. I sighed and I just wanted to leave. I took my keys and walked outside to my car. I got into it and started driving.

The whole ride I was thinking. Tonight I felt something that I never felt before when it came to Justin. Justin paid more attention to another girl than me. It didn't even matter that it was Chelsea, because I actually didn't care with what girls he was hooking up. It was just the fact that he paid more attention to some other girl and this unknown feeling killed me.