Be Mine. | Justin Bieber

Chapter 43

Chapter 43 - Without you

A day after the fight with Justin I still felt like crap. I didn't feel like doing a thing. I didn't feel like leaving my room, I didn't feel like eating, I didn't feel like talking. I stared at the ceiling the whole time, repeating the fight in my head over and over again. I really fucked up badly but what was I supposed to do? What's done is done and what I did was wrong. Totally wrong. Luke had me wrapped around his finger once again.

But how was he able to get me everytime with his stupid theories? And why was I so dumb to let him get me?

I was wondering how Justin was doing and how he was feeling. Yes he was disappointed and mad and angry and he probably hated me for all this bullshit. But he had every right to feel this way. How would I react if he was seeing Chelsea again after he had told me he doesn't anymore?

I would be mad as fuck. Remember when I was mad it him for hooking up with her? We were not even together. I didn't talk to him for a week. He was probably never going to talk to me again.

I closed my eyes and sighed. How was I going to fix all the mess? Should I text him? Should I call him? Should I drive to his house?

No it would be totally annoying. I was so clueless, helpless. I didn't know what to do.

Justin's Point of View

I didn't know what to do. I laid in my bed and looked at the ceiling, thinking. The image of Julie and Luke laughing together was stuck in my head. This thought just made me so mad. I tried to shake it off but it didn't seem to disappear.

I was wondering one thing: How did Luke do it that he got all the attention from all the girls? And how could he have all of them wrapped around his finger by doing one little thing? And why was he around my girl all the damn time? It's not like there are so many other girls in town.

It made me so frustrated and wondering what I was doing wrong when my girls leave me for him.

Okay Julie didn't leave me. Yet.

But still. I knew that I needed to try harder to keep her with me. There must be one thing that I have and that he doesn't. I was not planning on letting him win again. Julie is mine and I'm not letting her go.

But I was still totally upset and mad. If it was the other way around she would be too. I needed somebody to talk to. I already talked to Chaz but I needed another opinion so I called Ryan and he told me that he was coming over.

When Ryan arrived he came upstairs into my room and sat down on my bed.

"What's up bro?," he asked and we made a handshake.

"Nothing, just totally upset," I answered.

He look at me for a while and then said, "Julie?"

I nodded and looked out of the window, "we fought. Well I fought because I didn't let her talk or because she had nothing to say."

"Okay... Why did you guys fight then?"

I looked at him. "She was with Luke." Just mentioning this made me mad again.

Ryan's eyes widen, "what do you mean she was with Luke? Were they going out or something and why?"

"I was on my way to her house because she wanted to meet me. I arrived there and see them together in front of her house. I don't know why he was there and what they talked about but it must have been funny because they were laughing. They were acting like friends. I didn't like that."

"Wow this is kinda shocking."

"Tell me about it. Well Luke doesn't really shock me anymore. This boy has no chill but I never thought that Julie would fall for this games ... again. It pisses me off so much you know? Like I'm so mad," I replied.