It's Okay to Feel Broken {Cielois}

Chapter Four

A/N: I finally updated sorry it took so long. I've been getting tons of homework :/

Ciel stood up and stretched. His hands were cramped from all the writing, and his legs were cramped from all the sitting. He looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost lunch time. Alois had left Ciel almost two hours ago once the boredom had finally consumed him.

"Better go find him." Ciel sighed as he left his study. He wandered around until he found Alois' room. He knocked on the door. A few seconds later Alois opened it.

"Hello Ciel!"

"Hello Alois, I've finished with my studies for now and was wondering if you wanted a proper tour of the mansion considering I haven't had the chance to give you one yet?"

"Sure!" Alois said happily. Suddenly, Alois' eyes lit up even and he started bouncing up and down.

"Ciel! It's snowing!" Alois shouted as he pointed the window..

"Would you like me to give you a tour of outside instead then maybe?"

"Oh yes please!" Alois exclaimed. He ran to the hallway window to see more outside. He pressed his hands and face against the glass, his breath slowly fogging the pane.

"It's beautiful isn't it." Ciel said behind him.

"Mhm." Alois said, turning around to face Ciel. Alois looked at Ciel's face. The blueness of his eye, the way his hair perfectly framed his face... Alois started to stare, but shook himself out of it.

"Well, we better get going before the snow stops." Alois said awkwardly as he inched away from Ciel into his room to grab a coat. Once Alois had got his coat the two boys went to get Ciel's coat and they headed downstairs. Ciel unlocked the door to the outside gardens and Alois ran outside, his hands outstretched along with his tongue as he tried to catch all the snowflakes. Eventually he caught one on his tongue and jumped in success. Meanwhile, Ciel was examining the various statues in the garden. Considerably less excited about the snow than Alois. While Ciel was distracted, Alois balled up some snow and threw it at the back of Ciel's head.

"Oi! Alois what did you just do?!" Ciel yelled turning around, rubbing the back of his head. In response, Alois just threw another snowball at Ciel.

"You're gonna have to pay for that!" Ciel yelled as he made his own snowball and chucked it at Alois. Alois dodged it and giggled, sticking his tongue out at the bluenette. Ciel grinned and started making another snowball. This time he hit Alois. Ciel laughed as Alois fired a snowball back at Ciel. This went on for quite sometime until Alois got tired and fell on his back on the snow. He flapped his arms and legs back and forth, eventually making a snow angel. Ciel lied next to him and did the same. Once both boys were done they looked at what they had made. Ciel walked over to Alois' snow angel and stomped on the head.

"Hey!" Exclaimed Alois. Ciel laughed.

"That's for throwing a snowball at me."

Alois walked over to Ciel's snow angel and stomped all over it.

"What was that for?!"

Alois just shrugged. "You did it to mine."

A cold breeze blew through the air.

"It's really cold out here." Alois said as he shivered.

Ciel walked up to Alois and put his arms around him.

"Better?"

Alois nodded. Even through the cold he could feel his cheeks heat up. Ciel, to Alois' disappointment eventually let go, but he took off his scarf and wrapped it around Alois.

"Thank you, Ciel."

"It's no problem. Would you like to go in now? I can ask Sebastian to make us some hot tea."

"Sure!"

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Alois and Ciel were sat down on a couch near the fire drinking the hot tea Sebastian had just brought them. They chatted about Christmas plans and such for a while. There was a pause in the conversation and the two boys ended up staring at eachother. Alois started to lean towards Ciel. Ciel didn't know what to do but his emotions took over and he leaned in too and their lips pressed against each others for a short moment that they both wished could've lasted longer. Alois pulled back and stood up suddenly.

"Ciel... I'm sorry... I shouldn't... I'll uh go now." Alois mumbled and ran out of the room. Ciel was too shocked to even move. What had just happened? Did I really just kiss Alois Trancy? Yesterday I was trying to kill him and today I kissed him? What has gotten into me? Ciel shook himself out of his shock and stood up. He walked up to his room and read a book, trying to forget what had just happen. But in truth, Ciel couldn't stop thinking about the kiss and Alois.

~~~ Lunch time~~~

Sebastian served them their lunch and they ate in silence. Neither of them wanting to talk about what happened earlier.

"Well you two are awfully quiet today." Sebastian said as he refilled their drinks. Both Ciel and Alois felt their cheeks heat up when they heard this.

"Well we both are very exhausted. Yesterday was quite a long day." Ciel lied and Alois nodded.

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Ciel and Alois continued to avoid and ignore each other for the rest of the day until finally Ciel couldn't take it anymore. He had to talk to Alois. Ciel knocked on Alois' door. Alois slowly opened the door, saw it was Ciel, and jumped back in surprise.

"Alois we need to talk."

"Well I can't talk right now. Um I'm... taking a nap." Alois lied and started to shut the door. Ciel forced the door open and walked into Alois' room.

"Stop lying Alois. We can't avoid each other any longer."

"Well, what do you want to talk about?"

"Don't play dumb with me Alois. We both know what happened earlier."

Alois sighed.

"Fine. Yeah I know. But there's nothing to say about it. It was an accident. It just kind of happened and we both didn't mean for it to happen so-" Alois was cut off by Ciel kissing him. Alois was in shock, but eventually kissed back. They pulled apart and neither boy spoke for a minute. Ciel averted eye contact with Alois and stared at his feet. Ciel murmured,

"I- I gotta study" and left Alois' room. After he shut the door he broke into a run until he got back to his own room. What did I just do? I was trying to fix everything, but I've just made it a whole lot worse. Ciel thought and plopped down on his bed. Eventually, he fell asleep and didn't wake up till there was a knock on his door.

"Come in." Ciel said groggily.

"Cieeelll!" Only one person could be that excited to see him. Elizabeth.

A/N: Don't kill me pls xD and don't worry Elizabeth won't ruin our ship!