It's Okay to Feel Broken {Cielois}

Chapter Six

A/N: oh my god guys i am so sorry I haven't updated in a reallllyyy long time. Thanks for 300 reads btw!!! Also watch the vid if u want xD I made it for this chapter. It's only 2 seconds long tho haha. I edited the dub voice actor saying at a panel "Sebastian, I love you more than words can say." and replaced Sebastian with Alois.

Ciel's POV

Ciel walked back into his room in confusion. His Mind was clouded with thoughts. Do I love Alois? Of course I love him right? I didn't why would I have kissed him? But what about Elizabeth? Did I ever love her?

Ciel wiped his eyes of tears and put on a normal face. He then swung open his bedroom door to find not Alois, but a note.

Dear Ciel,

I understand that your reputation will be demeanored because of my presence which caused your ceased engagement with Lady Elizabeth. It would really be best that I go. I'm not worth your troubles.

Sincerely,

Alois Trancy

Ciel crumpled up the piece of paper and sobbed. Alois must have heard the dispute .Ciel really loved Alois and didn't want him to leave. He didn't want him to think he wasn't worth Ciel's troubles. Ciel ran to Alois' room to confirm he was gone. He opened Alois' door, and Alois was nowhere to be seen. Ciel broke down on the floor, sobbing uncontrollably, and it seemed like he just couldn't stop crying. He had finally found someone who could make him truly happy after his parents deaths, but now he was gone too.

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Once Ciel had decreased his sobbing to a more of a silent weep, he left Alois' room and padded through the halls, trying to be as quiet as possible. He knew it was only a matter of time before Sebastian knew something was up and would try to come after Ciel. It was a cold winter night, Alois couldn't have gotten far. When finally outside, Ciel scanned his surroundings. He saw some faint footprints in the snow, illuminated by the moon. He rushed to follow them. The snow was falling fast, and they would be completely covered up soon. The footprints led towards the forest. Ciel gulped. Who knew what was out there at this hour? Alois could be in danger. With these thoughts in his head, Ciel felt determined to find Alois.

Ciel stepped into the forest, and was immediately surrounded by darkness.

"Alois?" Ciel called, his voice echoing through the forest. "Where are you Alois?" But to Ciel's disappointment, there was no res[onse. Ciel wandered around the forest a bit more until he heard a faint noise. It sounded like sobbing and it was coming from behind some trees. Ciel ran towards the trees and saw Alois, knelt down with his face in his hands, sobbing.

"Alois! Thank God. I was so worried." Ciel said between sobs, and embraced Alois. Alois stared up at Ciel, tears running down his face.

"C-Ciel? You came after me?" Alois asked, a mix of disbelief and joy in his voice.

"Of course, Alois. Of course I came after you. I- I-" Ciel stuttered and looked down. "I love you." Alois' eyes widened in disbelief.

"I love you too Ciel." Ciel leaned towards Alois, and slowly brought his lips to his. Alois passionately kissed back, finding comfort in the kiss. Ciel pulled back and smiled.

"It's going to be okay, Alois." Ciel grabbed Alois hands and held them tight. Alois smiled weakly, and Ciel could tell he didn't really believe his words.

"I missed you. I know it may have only been a couple hours, but still I missed you. What's troubling you Alois? What's wrong?"

"I missed you too, Ciel. I'm sorry I left. I just couldn't stand to see you lose your reputation, and it felt as if was my fault. I also feel as if I should have done something to stop Claude and the others from dying. I'm so worthless. I'm the reason everyone else is suffering."

"Alois, you are not worthless. None of this was your fault. Trust me, I know how it feels to have people you loved taken from you. It seems like it will never get better and you'll never be able to smile again. But... but if there's one thing I've learned, it's that people do care about you. You were the one who taught me this. Before I met you, I never smiled, I never felt happy, but now things have changed. You've made me into a better person, Alois."

"I helped you?" Alois asked, astonished. Ciel nodded.

"I also never felt love until I met you. When I was with Elizabeth, I never really loved her. It was forced. You actually helped me realize what love is really like. Alois Trancy, don't ever leave me again." Ciel sobbed and threw himself into Alois' chest. His tears starting to freeze on his cold, rosy cheeks.

"Don't worry Ciel, I won't." Alois said as he hugged Ciel tighter. Tears were running down both boys cheeks now.