Remember The Name [COMPLETED]

I Am My Own Demon

utt Raven's POV:

I want to feel bad about locking them out, but I don't and I can't. I can't really feel anything. I'm not myself anymore. I'm just a giant rage bomb just waiting to explode and wreak havoc.

Sleeping is the only downtime I have now. When I do go out if I interact with the others I can't do much but say small sentences if even that.

I actually wasn't in my room for yvery long. There isn't much for me to do. I don't want to meditate because I know that if I enter my mind I am not coming out, and I can't read because it takes my concentration away from keeping Rage at bay.

While the others go to battle villains, I stay home and battle my own demons.

Literally.

My life just isn't the same anymore. All of ours are. I'm a threat as it is without me being so unstable. At this point there isn't much for me to do other than walk around, drink tea, and contemplate about if I should just end it right there and then. But then I think of Robin, and Beast Boy, and Starfire, and Cyborg. I already destroyed the world once. What would they do if I did it again?

It's noon, and all I can think of doing is take a nap. My demon is about to come out. At this point at any minute. It's just waiting beneath my skin to come out and help my father. I can' hold her back much longer. So I guess I'll go into the safe room with a cup of tea, just to be safe (like it will make much of a difference).

I got out some paper and wrote a note so I wouldn't have to explain it.

I keep the bottle for this specific purpose. Azar said it was a special potion, but I never thought it would actually work.

I left my room for the first time all day and went to the kitchen. The others were already there. No crime all morning. Part of me wishes they would go do something other than be in the house.

"Hey Raven." Robin said.
"Hi." I said.

This was basically what it was like talking to the others. One or two of them would say "Hi" or "Hey Raven" or whatever variant of that (Usually Robin or Cyborg. Star and Beast Boy always think that it's not their place to ask), then I'd give a simple hi. Sometimes they ask how I'm doing, and I usually say, "Worse than yesterday." Or whenever the last time I talked to them was. I've been pretty negative lately too.

"Friend Raven, we know you cannot talk much but we would like to know...truly...what will be the happenings." Weird. Star was usually to sheepish to say anything other than Hi. I looked at them.

"Uh, yeah, I hope we're not stepping over any lines asking, but we would really like to know." Cyborg said.

"I...uh....I....*sigh*. Here." I handed them the note and turned around, they read it while my back was still turned.