Taste Of Me

four.

Lisa's identity will be kept a mystery till we get to her POV.

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I was beyond nervous.

Not enough words can describe the petrify feeling, I'm feeling right now as I was walking towards the dinner.

My mind was trying to put how either way the date could go

"You can do this." I whispered to myself, as I glance at the cafe before me. The meeting with Lisa couldn't come sooner, and so did my anxiety right now.

Sometimes I hated how every little small thing I made it into a big thing.  That was one of the things that made me hate a part of my self. I shouldn't be so dramatic and just go inside.

As I entered, I tried to look around and maybe try to find Lisa as soon as possible so I don't have to stand here and look like an idiot.

And I did find her, but she wasn't alone.

She was with the guy from last night, I was confused why she brought him to our date. Still I walked towards them more nervous than before.

"Hi." I said to Lisa, who gave me a big smile like the guy seating next to her wasn't there.

"Hey, you came!" Lisa said with a big smile.

"Yeah." I said with a small smile. I sat down in front of her and gave her an awkward smile. The guy in front of me kept looking at me with cold eyes, making me look away from him and onto Lisa, who looked like she was having a good time.

What in the fucking hell?!?

"So Zöe, what do you ?" Lisa ask me. I looked at the guy next to her then looked at her again.

"I'm student." I kept my answer short. Right now I'm not having a good time, specially with this guy trying to intimidate me and a girl that was oblivious to my discomfort.

"Ohhh, what are you studying?" She asked brightly.

"I'm studying Criminology with - I'm sorry what is he doing here?" I couldn't take it anymore, his cold stare on me and Lisa's bright attitude was making me explode.

"Oh this is Matt." She replied with a smile.

"Okay, but why is he here? You never said that another person was coming." I looked at Matt again, who looked like he could careless about me feeling uncomfortable with him here.

"Oh, you see Matt wanted a date too, so I thought maybe we could all have a date together." She told me. I couldn't help but look at her like she lost her fucking mind.

"How fucking considerate of you." I muttered.

"I know! Both you wanted a date with me so I thought why not have two dates at the same time."

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I snapped losing any patience I had left. Not only this fucking girl is making me feel like a fucking idiot but the dumbass next to her didn't even care that she was playing him too.

"Woah calm down." Lisa tried to say, but once again I snapped.

"No I would not calm down, what is wrong with you?!? Are you so conceited that you can't see what's wrong here?!? I'm not one of your little toys that you can play and do whatever you want." With that said, I stood up and looked at her one last time.

"I'll leave you so you and Matt can have your little date. Next time instead of trying to be considerate, why don't you stop playing with people's feelings."

With that I left the restaurant angry at myself for falling for the first girl that gave me an one minute attention.

***

I was beyond embarrassed with myself. With the way that I fell for that girl. With the way I felt when she gave me attention. I couldn't help but muttered what a fucking idiot I am.

I've talked to my friend about it, and I know they all wanted to tell me how dumb I was, and I felt dumb too. Maybe this could teach me to not thirst over someone who gives me attention.

I knew it was dumb of me, but I couldn't help it. I just wanted someone to finally date, someone that can be with me. It was  first time that I put my self out there for someone that was from the same sex.

I sigh and looked at my phone waiting for a call from someone that I've blocked. It was stupid of me that a part of me wanted to talk to her, when she didn't thought of my feelings and invited someone else.

I hope I don't have to see her anymore.